last weekend of 2007

last weekend of 2007. I really hope my bad luck will get away from me faster. haha..... my fate and luck at 2007 is not good enough. this year is not good for me. faster pass!

my 2007 summary

过去1年的回首：
不知不觉一年就过去了，很快啊！又老一岁了。明年就成年了。可是思想还停留在小孩的阶段里。哎……觉得自己很坏！很没有用！持自stpm名誉，在上半年内拼命地换工。总觉得自己很厉害,是个高才生.拚命的埋怨这份工不好，那份工待遇很差……结果什么工都做不长。最长一个月多就走了，最短一天就拜拜！后果呢！就自己承担。没钱与同学去毕业旅行。没钱买必需用品……就在这个时候才体会到钱的魔力。每天都要伸手向爸妈拿钱用。都已经二十岁了还向两位活菩萨要钱！真该死！我很对不起他们。亲戚们都对我爸妈及我指指点点，我给爸妈很大的羞辱。很惭愧！觉得他们不应该生下我！stpm成绩考出来了，中等。那时候有点自责。他们反而没有怪我还勉励我。真的很谢谢他们!下半年了，由于从小的个性是被动的，迷迷糊糊的过日子。没有认真地想过要修什么科系，结果在填八个大学志愿时就交给亲戚爸妈来决定，做错了20年来最错的事。自己不会去争取想要的科系。真笨！志愿揭晓了，马大收我念IT。天啊！那时候真的很高兴。中了亲戚爸妈们的第一选择，马大！爸妈终于可以扬眉吐气了！因为自己不够坚持，念到自己一点都不敢兴趣的科系所以念了两个月多就停学了，很冲动的去递退学信。爸妈亲戚们傻眼了，尤其是我爸妈。心痛死了！简直是减掉他们的阳寿。他们很想我回马大，可是一切都太迟了。马大不会收回我了。唉……因为自己没有主见，任由他人摆步就收到了很大的教训。

未来的计划，展望：
懒惰的个性从我身上去除掉。无论怎样辛苦都好，都要有勇气去面对。要“勇于承担”! 这句话是一位兄弟跟我说的。我很对不起他。希望被伤到最深的爸妈明年会开心点，忘掉今年你儿子所面对的衰事！希望utar会收我。也希望本地大学给多一次机会我上大学！虽然进到本地大学的机会有点低迷，所以我希望奇迹降临在我身上。我一定要好好地把握机会。

未来1年内的愿望：
尽力地考取好成绩，证明给爸妈看。就算离开马大后，我也可以在其他大学考得不错，生活的很好！拥有模特儿身高的我却没有模特儿的身材，所以要在今年内搞好自己的身材。上天赐我这么高，不善用他真的太可惜了。爸妈，真的很对不起你们！我一定会在新的一年内活得更灿烂，燃烧自己，照亮他人。小弟的人际关系真的很糟糕，要学会与人沟通。希望无论做什么都好，都要有冲足的自信心！

感想：
在这年内我体会到很多东西。父母亲的伟大！朋友的勉励！患难见真情……整体来说这年真的过得很不好。不过我知道衰神一定会从我身上离开的！

遗憾：
做错了20年来最错的是就是使到父母们伤心！很不孝！离开了一间很好的大学，离开了马大及马大伙食团。

古佛： 再长的道路都要走过，路途不管什么。再苦的日子都要渡过，眼前不算什么。再苦的差事都要做，不会计较什么。再大的难关都要突破，方能得到结果。

he arrive ady rite?

I think now he is at USA ady. The person taking picture bsides me is my couson. He goes to USA to further his studies. Twinning program at Michingan University, if im not mistaken. He goes there 2 years. One more couson leave M'sia and go overseas. Haih... next year only me left at m'sia only. So sad...... all go to overseas ady. 我不服气. Why all my couson can go overseas whereas I cant? I also will go overseas de....... hmm.....

angry

today is christmas! should be very happy but some events occur that cause me feel abit upset. I never tot that i will b celebrate my christmas in such dull surroundings! Angry! Better i go to church myself......

Brother...... u really want to go?

Really got to say goodbye to him. Today I secretly go kl just to meet with him. Crazy already? Not, I do this because he is my brother. My lovely brother, what I can do is just wish him. Actually today I go to find u got a lots to chat with u de but mayb u shy and do not chat with me directly. Just my thinking, Ching kei brother when u c this don't get angry arr! Actually, that time when i meet with u. I also don't know what to say as others HST member will chat alot with u de.

So u now at penang right? remember to take care of urself at there. Even i don't mention it, u also will do it for urself de. Brother, hmm....... don't know what to say right now. What i want to say de, u also get know ady......

u will leave?

today feel quite shocked. This morning I receive the news that my brother will leave hst soon. Quite surprise to know it. Hst boys are quite little now after brother Chen and brother Wu leave hst to find their better path. Now my beloved brother also will leave hst. Quite sad to hear that. I really hope that he will stay at there as next time after i graduate I can stay with him and go "chengquan" student with him. Brother, I will miss u de. Oklar, bsides write mail to marcus brother, I will write mail to u. I hope ur future better than at kl. Brother, I hope to c u soon. Miss u! Ching Kei, my beloved brother.

Bsides feel shocked, today got another quite happy event occur to me. One of my customer that I serve call me and ask what happened to me? why didnt work at food and tea restaurant? I feel warmed when received his call. Uncle, thank you for still remembering me and I will sms him frequently as I'm now be his godson. Haha......

Pek Ngah birthday

the gal, pek ngah right bsides me celebrate her birthday last two days. Pek Ngah, happy brithday! Don't upset when u c this blog, haha...... However, I think u won't get know that I got write my blog at here rite? There are many friends celebrate birthday with her. All of them are very good. I mean they can find their way and walk on their path. on the other hand, me is the most lemah. Last time, I'm the most lucky person among all of them. I get into UM, the top local uni at M'sia but I don't know appreaciate. I leave that school! How stupid I'm. Now regret also no use ady. What I can do now is whatever course that offer to me, I won't scare of it instead I will face it. Must do best into it. Don't easily fall down, chea how. U also can be like ur friends that can find ur way! Must try ur best, ok?

morning at KLIA

this two weeks quite a lot of events occur to me. i go KLIA with my dad send my aunt back canada. long time no go to KLIA already. the last time i go KLIA is last year Nov during my brother come bk to M'sia. haha...... this picture I capture at the outside of KLIA. a lot of aeroplane at there. i feel quite happy to go KLIA, I treat it as trip for me.

Right until now I also quite blur. I mean I'm worry about future. There are quite a lot of choices for me therefore cause me blur. however, now the choices are no more already as I cancel it by myself. now I scare that I may make wrong decision. PR this course is suits me anot? If not pr this course then which course should I choose? Bsides hospitality, I really don't know what should I read ady. worry......

Zi XIang and me. Both show our white teeth.

Look who is bsides me? Is him, Jaron. I hope that he won't feel angry after he c my blogs but I think he won't get know of it. Dear Jaron, that moment I quite sad as u ask me to keep stay at HST. Really sad! I know I can't make it so I do not give any promise to u during that time. Jaron, please try your very best to take care of HST. Ok? I do have a lots of words to u but due to my english is not good enough, I will use simple english to describe about it. Jaron, I will miss u de. Hope u won't forget me. That picture is very mean to me. So, I hope u can take good care of it. Don't worry, I will write letter to u. After I graduate, I will stay at HST, Happy Mansion to take care of the HST member and run my duty. So, I hope during that time, V can "Cheng quan" our juniors.

thank you, my friends

writting blog at friendster is too obvious. What I mean is a lot of friends and outsiders will know what do i write. So, I decided to build another blog site at here. Well, today is 10 Dec. Yet i still don't know what can i do? I mean my future. I'm quite happy that a lots of my friend very concern about me. Those who help me, thank you very much. Really want to say thank you for u all. First of all, I would like to say thank you to the driver that pick me bk to bercham, Mr. Calo. Then Chee Fei, Shee Ping, Ji Yien who help me to analysis my problem. My buddies Ryan, Ka Yeng and Chun Hoe. Thank you, I know u all are very worry about me. I promise u all, I will decide it as soon as possible.

烦!

我的未来是什么?放弃不念大学能做到什么?我会成为一事无成的废物吗?清道夫?乞丐?我不敢想象.我还能保持我崇高的理想吗?为什么没人支持我拿这一科?为什么?难道这一科真的没有$途吗?难道$真的那么"重要"吗?我很烦!