xenon... u? haiz... chee kwang bro, pls cheer up and cheer up to myself too.

really dont know the mode that i interact with ppl that i close with. how to say? do not know how to imbalance my demand and supply from them. sometimes ppl just dont appreciate what i did. well, for those is recognize from me as bro just take me for granted....

how to say? 别让某人成为你生命中的优先，当你只是他们生命中的一个选择时。人与人之间的关系只有在彼此达到平衡时，运作的最恰当。this is hard to do it... very hard to do it. im sure my all bros and others can did it to me... but i cant.... cheahow, ur empathy and pure can hide it? so that it wont use by others? this situation im refer to xenon and i... really can feel that he is taking me for granted. what kind of bro are you? u r more willing to study also dont come out to celebrate my birthday even one birthday wish also dont give me... what is that attitude? haha... dont rake up the past... change where u dont want to fall in the trap again. well, i think for me to wake up le ba... protect urself pls...

another bro, chee kwang.... i sincerely hope u do not think too much. relax urself pls. for sure i will help u de. im quite worry ur health. as i said... psychological mood will affect ur disease... pls pls pls dont ever let ur mood, let ur worried tackle u. god, this boy is much more sincere and determined compare to me... y u select him to get this illness? unfair right? haiz...

yest i thought i get the job one. however due to lie, i have cause seng aik n his gang do not get the confirmation. i here want to said sorry to u... really sorry. now what i in dilemma is i do not know how to go there. i hope u can text me the address. i mean the person in charge la... haha...

thanks for the lesson, mr. ho...

today really thanks alot to rhu yann senior. he picked me to have dinner at thai restaurant by his brand new car. i forgot is honda or toyota ady... but i think is honda city... according to him, is not belong to him. today i really learn alot. really hope the mp3 can record our conversation clearly. so that i can revise what u share wit me.

i experienced quite ridiculous things just now. u said pass up at thursday. v exchange our two question for perusal then submit doctor. well, i have finished and sent to u... ur response is hey, u so free ar? help me do question 1 n 2 also la... hehe...

what i did is appear offline to her... talking nonsense to me. i really want to slap u, can i? haha... the time i use msn and fb gonna to reduce. i cant always run my life like that. got to spare my time to violin, to books and english readings... chea how, as rhu yann said... pls be leader. be strong be creative be.... superb... thanks rhu yan.

chee kwang bro, dont worry. u will be all right. really will be all right. im sure ur mitral regurgitation disease wont infect.... bro, dont think too much. cant imagine that one day might lost u suddenly.... but im sure that wont happen... i strongly believe it.

melbourne?

I will be going to Melbourne at next year 9 May. Well, does this action is such in a sudden? well, i admit that im too rush without making decision. The consequences is now I'm really out of money. my ptptn now left rm600... ==

this monday i get scolded by one coursemate while doing my presentation. well, the incident is like that. she was bz wit graphic comm assignment. i said fine. let me settle the slides. what she needs to do is just read the previous senior's hard work and follow my slides to explain. when she explain, wrong. I expect u read several times, not only one or two. well, when lecturer explain the answer, she said im wrong and "send regards my mother" (in chinese) that is rude word. so that time, i stare at her... dont mess with me.

thanks to kc, sk, jojo n others fren advise. during the japanese class as usual im the lagging.... i feel quite useless.... thanks to kc... the guy that i met at this semester who same class wit me. though i only knew u for two months but this buddy said if i go melacca, i can stay at his house... haha... feel quite shocked when know that.

just now, i try to persuade eric and chee kwang follow me go to melbourne. dude, i think i can provide u meal and accommodation FOC. hope u two can joins.... melbourne is such a wonderful place (i assume la)...

chee kwang, pls take care... ur heart will be no problem... really de.

i wonder to know when will i stand up again?

Melacca trip? No, thanks. I'm worry that will be the same and this trip is I ask whether i can join de. not include me at the first time. so same like HK trip...

this time i really sad... i strongly hope i can learn from mistake and stand up again.

I have bought a set of nature republic's cosmetic products. i hope i can fully utilised it... btw, i think i quite irrational for buying that products... ==

sleep ba... tmr will be better...

sleep ba... tmr will be better...

today i feel sad......

got feeling want to flow the tears... my hurt is pain.... tears rolling.... what is the sins that i have been done. why u guys dont include me for the HK trip? I cannot have my graduation trip... i feel kinda hurt... I do not did anything wrong to u guys... why? what should i do now? keep smiling with them and pretend nothing?

special credit to chee kwang bro and ye juan bro, chee kwang is nice as he is the one msn with me, tell me to calm down. ye juan bro, though he is bz but when i want to story him, he said ok, i prepare to hear but at the end i decide not to tell him because he is bz....

and jeffrey also... though me n u r only coursemates but u quite nice.... thanks.

bro, can i go CANADA? i feel i want to undergo my life at there... i do not know what ur reaction but i hope u can help me...

btw, i have met wit counselor today... my sickness is on the curing progress.

I felt quite funny by u...

just one picture with rainbow, u said im become GAY liao... what can i react? somemore u r my bro... i feel so funny when u said like that.

today i feel myself quite fruitful... so pls keep this spirit.

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really long time no write something at here. sorry to my blog... recently a lot of things have been occurred. ARRRR... my english poor man!!! I need to brush up within this third year before i go for my job. So, what u want to write here? how's life? well, i start to feel lonely... bore... feel weak... i mean weak in terms of mental... why u feel like that?

is it because u r person who always want fren accompany u? always want hot surroundings? well, i guess so... so, pls pls pls pls this "sickness" u not yet cure yet? I thought u have already adopted it long time ago? I dont know u use any method, u must cope this. ok?

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