30 dec 08. jazz band...

30 night v guys went to support lih ying orchestra... quite fun at there. all of us wear quite smart to there. got vivienne, nelson, jasmine, christ, me, peggy, candy, tim and daniel. i think v are the most wild at there. shout lih ying names many times. sit wit jasmine they all sure very excited one. they all very easy to get high one. the jazz band plays medley got two set. set 1 is quite bore actually then set 2 is much more better than set 1. got lot of excitement. at first, v all shy to stand out and shake our body. after that, all of us stand up already and start to follow the music and move our body. got boombox... that two teenager is very talent. v do take alot of picture at there.

i met wit chee ooo and xenon at there... haha... i cant believe that lih ying so excited after finish the performance. she goes to kiss christ. ahh... y not me? haih... christ face is not as clear as mine la. haih... all of us shocked and scream after c she kissed him... haih. finally lih ying can rest already. haha... so fun. after that, v all go to have supper at khaleel. i act like crazy. y? is it because of new year? haha... talk alot of crap at there cause many ppl laugh and laugh... hahaha... happy 30 dec. next year maybe i will b one of them perform at the stage. so watch out... haha...

persoanlly wat do u think of the jazz band? well, i see alot of running out of tune. haha... the wing instrument noise are much more louder than other instrument. haha...

carl new sem first week diary

hello, long time no write blog already. how r u all? now i went bk to usm already. this week is quite leisure for me. year one sem two start at monday. first day change new look already. i mean wear my lense for the lecturer class. hehe... hope can attract someone wit my big and alluring eye. hehe... then go to english, malaysia, 111 classes. i saw different teacher wit their own characteristic.

carl, how u celebrate ur christmas? cool man! 24 evening, v go to jog and play badminton then at night two cars go to gurney. one is rent car and the other one is nelson's friend myvi. so crowded at the gurney. v do take alot of picture. i wear new shirt already. thanks to padini staff, choose that shirt and pant to me. so handsome!!! haha... syok sendiri pulak. however, got one things cause me quite surprise de is the surroundings do not have the fireworks. i tot christmas got fireworks to enjoy wit de but it doesnt have. haha...

after that, i follow them go to cafe to drink beer. poor carl do not drink any beer again. haha... wat to do? because i think is not the time to have it now. wat do u mean? dont know how to describe, i just think dont want touch those things at the christmas. haha... hope next time when the time, the feel is allow then i drink it lo...

thanks to alex for inviting me to another christmas potluck... so enjoy the moment at there. thanks alex. this guy is another brother that i would appreciate him very much. quite handsome and kind. he is in third year now. soon he will graduate. haha... this is final sem for him. hope i can c him always. haha...

happy birthday, pek ngah...

yesterday really happy, y i said so? because one of my f6 friends. miss ng birthday. her birthday quite big. so many ppl come to wish her, its like open house. her brother friends, sister friends and her primary schoolmate also come to wish her... a lot of present. thanks to calo bro pick me up to her house.

i got abit cemburu her birthday one. y? because her birthday so many ppl come to wish her... of course la, my birthday is around exam week one. her birthday got alot of present. carl, u want to compare? haha... dont compare la. as chee fei said, compare will cause urself more stress haha.... but got one thing i really embarass her de is the effort of kai loon brother do for her. the 21st people wish compile into an album... decorate so beautiful... inside there got many of our friend write our wishes to her. thats really nice.

remember to time wit bro calo... and thanks to jasmine... register...

today tgoy member so union. all register the course. haha... thanks to jasmine that inform me to online to register. Quite nervous when i know the server abit slow... luckily know how to solve it, restart the computer again. haha...

carl, remember this moment... calo bring me to date... haha... kidding. calo bring me to aberdeen online, accompany him guah... haha... he so smart last time last two days when he online and i said if he gots online later ask me to join. he stills remember and asks me whether i want to join anot... haha... thanks, calo.

after that, i ask calo go to shop christmas present wit me la... and i do give him big surprise. one polo-t to him also. haha... he so shocked when i give the padini haha.. merry christams, mr.calo.

cant go hatyai la

carl cant go the trip already. haih... why change the trip back to initial plan? y dont go sunway and melacca leh? haih... go to hatyai pulak. nvm then. y cant go wit them? got several reason that i dont go one. first of all is money. after lending money is my good friend, i broke already. so i cant go. wat else if i got $? well, most probably i also wont go. why? because recently hatyai quite not stable. so, i scare to face some bad accident at there.

wait a minute... is it u dont have chance to go then give urself lot of excuse leh? quite 矛盾 lo... hehe... nevermind, u cant go hatyai, u can go to taiping lo, find shaun brother to play wit u lo... haha... c how then...

this is the feeling that i want.

yesterday night really have the feel that i want. why? meet all the f3 till f5 classmates back and yum cha together. i really enjoy that feel. no need to hide the feeling, expose it out. talk and laugh loudly. haha... yum cha at yoyo restaurant. calo brother pick me up. thanks ya... send the show to him. he guides me to across the road. haha... thanks, calo brother.

so happy see back them. last time v reunion back is when already? at august during mr.fong birthday. haha.. not c some of them 3 months already. haha... this time v go quite alot of places. 2nd round go to have lop lop at ipoh garden south then go to kinta river there to take a look. after that, they plan to pick me to work. haha... that time so funny. all also kidding me. but nevermind.

i hope the trip at next monday can work out. lets go out leave perak and play together.

eric brother back already... haha...

eric brother come back to ipoh... so nice that he willing to have supper wit me two times. one at bercham and the other one is at ipoh garden east. v do chat alot. long time no c him already since that time i go UM for convo. thanks for still layan me though u are having ur exam soon.

he is still look as usual. nothing changes. this brother matured so fast de... now aware that his age is old already. his mindset is way different wit me. got time to buy him christmas present. eric, i hope our friendship can remain forever.

no money... how?

wat! no money again? carl, u really need to plan ur financial properly. always no money at the pocket... this is serious, u noe? now no more backup u, u noe? dont always too materialistic, ok? haiyoo, u should find some part-time to cover urself ar... haih. soon, mum cant work already, no income from home, wat should u do? depend on the canadian brother? can he? he wont spoon feed me, u noe right? he so hate u, u should noe de. haih...

dont know how to do lo.... sei loh.... carl, what do u gonna to do?

wat do u do after next?

hello, guys. tonight will go to yum cha lo... so long not go out already since the wedding. tonight will meet wit a friend that not meet long long time ago. hope i can enjoy the gathering.

carl, u come bk to holiday one week already. may i noe wat did u do for the whole week ar? sleeping, watching cartoons and dramas all the day...... is this the life stlye u want to get? well, i plan to find work one but cant find any source. thats why holiday pass like that lo. haha... hope the following 3 weeks i can really pass it wit meaningful lo.

i dont drink any drops of ur drink still want me to pay. wtf!!!

do u guys ever get cheated before? i dont know wat to address that. just some complex feeling. the incident is like that. Due to my friend, carina birthday. v all go to sincero which is a pub. at that time i dont have money to drink alcoholic drinks, so i mention to them that i wont take any alcoholic drinks. But out of my expectation, today i receive the message from my brother that the happy hours fees is rm35!

Omg. wtf!!! i dont consume any beers any wain. u still want to me pay? come on, wats the hell... this is the things that i hate it. oh man! i dont drink. why i still have to pay? this is very unfair to me. so wat can i do now? i sms to him and said i dont consume any drops of alcoholic drinks yet this brother reply that v all is 1 team member... those fucxk explaination to me.

carl, wat u plan to do next? ok, u want me to do that right? then nothing i can do, i just reject all the invitation and drinks wit u all lo. thats all i want to say.

wedding...

so happy that my form 6 classmates get married. i cant expect it become so fast. carl, when do u will get married? this is big question for me... i also hope that i can get it... haha... the main character is her.... sheau mei... i dont know got write wrong her name anot. i wish she can get her child soon... then the loveship can last forever. so happy when i see all my friends celebrate wit her. some of them purposely came bk celebrate wit her. i wonder to noe who is the next? this event cause me noe the procedure of wedding... thanks alot.

bsides the wedding, got one my lovely gal's birthday straight after the wedding dinner. so all of us go sincero to rock... wild... the music is strong. cause me very high and shake it baby... owl...

after the exam

after the exam, wat carl's do after that? its time to rock, baby... wat do v do? snap alot of picture wit tgoy member outside the examination hall, all also wear blue in colours... carl first time jog at the stadium... so enjoy that moment. jog four rounds. dont know how many distance that i have walk. sweating alot. after that v go have supper at khaleel. after that watch movie whole night, all also cannot rest. so lame and crazy... haha... thats the life after finish the exam, need to expose it out... after that eat dimsum wit them at the morning of the following day. first time have dim sum wit them. haha... enjoy the food. then queensbay, v come... sorry to vivi, use her sun glasses witout her greenlight, haha... then meet wit this brother, mr.calo at queensbay. first time i meet wit him at penang. of course la, v read different usm campus. haha... brother, wish u have nice day. prepare to c him at 191108.

feel like want to close this blog.

feel like want to close this blog. y? it is because got insecure feeling? dont know... have complex feeling. feel want to find some privacy here but sometimes got feeling want to expose this blog to everyone that i noe, let them to update my latest info. however, once i expose this blog. i got feeling that someone that i noe might look it, seems my privacy los

sorry to my two brothers.

why like that one? its all my fault. sorry to my two brothers, shaun and nelson. actually v should get A one. our assignment and attendance so nice, can get A already. only the presentation get B nia. haih. give us A- which is same wit majority of them. haih. sorry, really sorry to both of them. If v get B+, v can get A already.

during study week at library.

now let the music cause me awake. Beep. this song quite nice. so sleepy when c the books. y want to c books? exam come already la. thats why im reading. burn midnight oil.

study week start. Carl, u noe wat to do right? soon semester one will finish.

i saw the pychologist liao. happy!!!

i will be normal soon. so happy when i noe that. i really will be normal back and gain back to normal life. thanks to pychologist. haha... so happy. today work on the surprise to nel nel. so happy when c all those effort come out. if i were him, i sure will cry. haha... so warmth when receive that. if i can receive all those, how nice. haha...

i wont feel any paiseh anymore wit that ppl. because i not like him is admire him. if really got problem, go to c the pychologist again la. so carl, u no need to worry. ok?

thanks

i tell to tat ppl already. about the problem i face. dont know how to explain. i dont care either the answer is postive or negative. carl, u should feel relax already. this case drag so long already. should close file. during this problem, i noe that who is mean to me and who is not relevant to me already. for those who assist me, give me advise. i will remember this. for those who is good to me. however. for those who show ur cooldness to me, nvmla. learn something from here. haha...



want to sincerely tahnks to jason, the most kind guy senior who concern me at usm. thanks to him. though he noe the problem but he not scare of me compare to other senior. he is way better than him. haha... thanks for two brothers and one sisters. shaun, ye juan and jasmine. they offer a lof of advice to me. this two brothers help me to analyze my feeling. thanks to ye juan, he lets me noe that the feeling is not love but is 仰慕. thanks. shaun, he helps me a lot. jasmine, this gal plays wit me... shaun also... u two are naughty. haha...

counselor + lenses

counselor not at office today. so, i cant see them. have to wait monday only can noe the result. carl, pls wait for 4 days ok? i think its time to change over image again, wear back lenses. carl, u can do it one. haha... show ur big and cutie eye for others liao. hope can get it soon. haha...

genting trip.

wat should i feel now? helpless. dont know wat can i do already. soon will go to get caunsel by ppl. hope they can help me. i dont want be fall in love with sumbody that i cant love with. carl, now u should concentrate into ur studies de. dont know why? last time i got courage to write watever at here but now the couragous dont have already. i scare wat i write will hurt ppl who view my blog/ haha... so coward already.

so carl, how r u recently? enjoy the life at usm campus? hmm... quite enjoy. now get use of the life at here already. really? thats good. haha... bsides that i join my group to enjoy the genting trip. haha... so good at there. quite long time didnt go genting already. i think about 10 years ago. haha... genting is cool. quite cold also. i enjoy alot of games at here. so happy when with them. why u dont enter casino though u are 21 already? because quite hard to find ppl to take care of my luggage. how to say? i dont want burden ppl. so i do not go lo. take care of my luggage is enough.

dont always look at that person.

y i always see that person one? i dont want la... prove that im really... i dont want la. haha... i wish i can find another better ppl to look at. dont want always that person. haha...

nightmare

poor carl. two days nightmare consecutively. haiyoo, not good sign. hope tonight wont nightmare again.

mission fail

tmw will go bk to usm already. carl, the mission fail already. i cant even touch the notes that i bring far from penang. very guilty. why like that one? is it because my relatives from kl come to visit ipoh? haih. mission fail. haha... what i learn during this week holiday? can say nothing. haih...

my primary schoolmates.

haha... long time never c most of them. how many years? i also forget already. i wish tat v will still keep in touch. primary school gathering should held always. i dont want lose our friendship.

for those who dont want to present, i wish u all can understand that our frienship is precious lo. hope u all can understand.

for those who dont know, sorry to u all because dont inform u all haha.... next time bah.

for those who cannot present, sorry also as the time is not good. dont blame me ar.

thanks to kah mun, cian, yuin, stella khoo, kai yi, danny and yan for willing to present. haha... danny thanks for create msn account and add them. hehe... 6A's class student friendship forever

long time no write blog already.

really long time no write blog liao. now at ipoh already. what should i feel? feel relax? should say i feel busy. I got to pass up two assignments after finish this one week holiday: japanese scrap book and pysho assignment. bsides that, i need to read the books that i bring bk. else, carl, u are really useless if u cannot do that. faster read finish, next week u got to go to genting play already, wit tgoy member. should be very very nice. haha...

tgoy? recently very close wit them, v go many places already. always gather together and chat. the latest event is v go to prangi mall. at 600cc there eat dinner. so happy. got 6 ppls go there. bsides that v go to mooncake festival dtsp... alot of good memory together. v even play turth or dare. haha... so nice. i hope i can graduate together wit them. all score good result and work together lo. those broadcasting one get to be producer. pr de can work as pr practitioner, can get their dream job...

thanks to tgoy

thanks to TGOY. All also treat me kindly. Though u all noe my problem, my stigma but none of u look down at me. U all still treat me normally. So good. Thanks to u all. So scare u all neglected me alone but surprisingly the outcome is good. They all wont alienated me instead they treat me very nice. They treat me squarely. Thanks to u all.

Thanks to jaron and ye juan. They still be friend with me.

TGOY

this picture nice? it is my group name tgoy (the gangs of y's). i appreciate they all very much. thx to them. this picture was edited by the rabit head, sony. thanks.

to u all, maybe u all wont same major wit me during our 2nd year but i will appreciate u all de. thx.

today i feel so warmth. thx sister...

i must write dw the touchful moment at usm. today im quite sad and happy. why? because i out of $. my bank acc only have rm14.41. cannot survive ady. later i got to pay fees, worth rm90 sth but my wallet only have rm60. wat to do? beg from others la. that feeling is not good. so i choose for the close members and ask them. i ask ye juan, shaun, jasmine and keen li. they all willing to help me. so touch when i noe that. after that i try for nelson, this bro also very kind0 hearted. im very lucky to have all of them. especially ye juan, he even come to find me and lend his money to me, rm200 for me to protect myself. walao, so touch at that moment. he is really very mean to me. carl, u must remember all of them. they treat u so kind. in return, u must not angry with them.

do my attitude correct this time?

wat to write? write about today feeling la. i feel quite strange for the 1st assignment? why? how to say? i also dont know whether i got wrong anot just feel that my teammate treat me differently. maybe i didnt turn up during the compile and edit session. thus, they all got abit angry me. i sms to them, they didnt answer. do i make wrong this time?

dont give up...

Just receive sms from my best friend that her mother sick, quite serious. Wat can I do is to give some words to cheer her up. I cant do much more. I hope she can pass this hardship. I believe god wont bring her mother go so fast. Ur wish and will is important. Don’t give up, ok? Ija….

one days wit my lovely pr3 coursemates... with justin and averse brother.

have wonderful and sweet moment at kampar this tuesday. i wont forget the sweet moment with them. averse, justin, evonne, miko..... especially my two brothers, justin and averse. y? because they treat me very nice. this time when i go there, i tot they wont bother me de. even bother me, i think the relationship do not as close as before but instead. they treat me very very nice.

thanks to averse for let me stay at his house. i arrive too early already. brother, i tot u wont let me stay at ur house de. so, when u agree to let me stay at ur house, i feel so surprise and warmth. thanks for let me touch ur laptop. brother, u are way too busy but the room, u must clean. hehe... i even got chance to c his sleeping face, like child. haha... thanks for let me use ur shampoo, soap, towel... and even ur privacy stuff. last time u told me that u wont let ppl see it and touch it de but this time, thanks. really touched when u let me to use it. CK one and be. so nice the smell. the most touched when he said he allows me to rest at his bed for one weeks until next monday if i stay at kampar. averse, thanks to ur comment. my shoulder is broad and my chest is big... thanks. next time i look forward ur another comment... mentally praise... and thanks for ur advise, dont ask such sensitive question...

another brother justin, though i not wit them as much as averse but he stills play his responsibility to take good care of me. he offers his room to me also when i said i feel sorry to averse as i cause averse brother cant rest well. so nice... T-T. tin tin, thanks ar. last time if i tell u to style my hair, u wont do it de but this time. both brother help me. walao, so nice that moment is very enjoy. i wont forget that moment.

thanks to miko and evonne also. they accompany me to eat dinner. thanks ar. i think i v will meet again at feb. evonne birthday. hehe... if i cant make it, my two brothers birthday i will come also de. hehe...

hope that time when v meet, i can hear u all say: carl, u are change. not only physically but mentally also change already.

i look forward for that day to come.

man......

at aunt house right now. feel quite comfortable at here, seems like so peaceful, silent like that. like this feeling. hehe... in holiday mood now. after one whole day to think, i feel so sorry to myself? why say like that? why want to act like that, im man! not gal! y want to act soft? man should be more man!

sk... can see u. feel so happy.

finally i can c this guy, really long time no c him already. though are 15 minutes talk but i feel very comfortable already. he still looks smart and have muscular body, hug him twice already. hehe... but got abit sick. how are u, sk? ok mar? hope that u will get in healthy soon. thanks for ur praise, he can sense that i look differently. hehe... he feels so glad to my condition, can get in local uni again. thank u, sk. really feel thanks for ur help. last time i almost give up on anything, thanks to ur sms and cheers. thanks.

quite sad that u go to penang this weekend, cant accompany me. haih... but nvm. i can survive alone though without u besides me. i want to prove to u tat i can make it. haha... bro, will miss u always.

senior convo...

finally i go back to UM already. so happy that im at there just now. i c bk the old faces, seems all of them having fun at there. it seems everyone forget me already except for some seniors. thanks to them. i can c alot of freshie at there but i dont have the time to noe them. nvmla... next year will be come to there anot? who graduate? is jian choong yeye... so i think i might come again but i think the time is quite rush. persuasive comm 2nd year is quite busy de.

Those picture are the seniors who graduate... congratulations to them. woo ken yeye, purposely come down to c u de... wish u best of luck la... this event wat do i feel? i feel that i no longer scare and sad when i c my um seniors and juniors. last time when i came across um, i dare not have the courage to see the scenery at um. quite hurt when chat wit them but now the feeling no more. now i can say proudly to my seniors and juniors that im from USM!!!

life busy

recently quite busy wit usm new life. so quite lazy to write things at here. but i noe i cant like that. so, have to change. carl, u can make it one. dont be too lazy, not start to revision? now wat weeks already? fourth week already, still so lazy. not start to do work!!! cannot like that one, how can u score? dont be too lazy, now i feel sleepy le... still got one hours to go... swt... then have to do medical checkup, this event will cause i eat dinner quite late... hate it.... just now kk translate to me, i can find kaki play squash wit me already. thanks kok kiong. tonight will be long day to wait at pusat kesihatan. luckily got bring books to go... so clever im.

life at usm...

stay at usm quite long already. got 3 weeks, adapt to the life here? i think ok, the disadvantages is the toilet and language. how to say? last time when i was at um and utar. the toilet is better than here. utar is the most advanced. got heater somemore... the most coolest water is at UM. so cool, of course i stay at 10coll. is located at hill side. the water sure cool la... hehe... language? this is another disadvantages, i prefer english compare to bm. y? it is because my course communication should use BI de... easy for us once im go out to work but... haih...



here, i can find some true friend. v always eat together... eat at bakti permai, eat at sg.dua... all dont separate... quite good compare to utar that i hardly find friend to eat wit me... hehe... thanks to my friend: ye juan, shaun, kar kuan, jack, shyan, esther, phoebe... and many more. thanks. this sem i take 20 unit. i scare i will die... but no need to scare also as i noe many of students take all unit. so all work hard...



USM got alot of nice view to see,

this weekend i will go bon odori and sunday will go out wit ye juan, i think. hope will be unforgotten and happy weekend.

glad to noe u...

thanks to contact lense... finally i can go out to play basketball already. last time when i dont have contact lense, its hard to play. have to worry of my spec. now no more as finally i wear lense already... thanks to ye juan, teach me play basketball. this ppl really treat me quite good. how good is he? he finds me to eat meal wit him always. how to say? im fresh graduate at USM. this guy is the 1st guy that i noe him.

usm life...

erm.... want to write wat? lets write the life i at USM la. usm is bigger than um. i sweat alot when i go for lecture class. dont noe which block should go... so always ask ppl wher to go... and always sweat.. hate that wetty feel... but i believe soon i will master it... and guide the coming junior... be the pbms... haha...

justin and averse

how to say ar? brother, im quite happy that u two mentioned to me tat u miss me... especially justin, he talks so true to me... im happy icon of pr3? very happy to hear that. my mission get reached. however, i think my leave will give temporary impact to u all de. soon, all will resume to normal and forget me soon de. haha... brother, i also miss u all but life must go on ar...

justin, dont angry ar... u and averse are equally important to me de. if not i wont put u two at my display friendster list together la... so dont said to me that i treat u as the alternative la... quite sad to hear that... justin brother, how to say leh? im glad tat u finally call me brother leh. last time when i address u brother, u stop me from call u tat de... but now haha... not too late already la. v still can always keep in touch de. one more things, u must push our groupmate ar. dont be 2nd evonne. she so suffer... must push them ar...

averse, thanks for ur sms. thx for teach me how to use perfume... thanks. i miss u too. brother, u are more rational than justin. i hope u can take care of pr3 members lo. hehe... i will remember wat u deliver to me de... T-T. thanks brother...

both of u take care... our brothership wont get break de... i must relate it de... help me to say hi to cp brother also...

1st trip part two

happy.... today go out shop with them... participants is carl, ye juan, 佳勤, jack, esther, shyan and phoebe. this is our first destination. during the waiting bus moment, v meet at 春玲and her fellow friends. she quite funny, always chat and laugh wit me. my face not look like 1st year? quite sad to hear that even senior they all also think that im not look like 1st year le... hehe... sad... arrive komdar. v enter inside and shop... inside there is quite big and got sg.wang feel. i mean is not pavillion, gardens style. every ppl also can walk at there. its not as crowd as jusco, ipoh. i think it is because penang got many shopping complexes. so got more choices... the bus ticket to there is rm1.5. hehe... thanks to jack, he helps me to pay 1st. i dont have changes. later return u back ar...

after walk some while, v decided to go gurney plaza. i suddenly miss ching kei brother. this bro i not yet see him though he at penang now. wher r u? long time v dont meet already. after that v decided to eat at McD. hehe... those are the picture... v all eat so happily. hehe... jia qin and jack brother, hope both of u enjoy and get rid of home sick feeling la. haha... then v go to shop our things. ye juan brother and jia qin brother got buy things others just windows shopping. i want to buy swimming custome de but no $. jia qin buy the swimming cap whereas ye juan buys the sport custome. haha... quite handsome leh...

happy got chance to take picture at seaside near the gurney... the seaside is nice when v look from far but when v reach nearer and see the beach. quite sad to c it. i hope all ppl will save the beach... thanks for the uncle who help us to take picture when v need ppl to help us. all take it together... hehe... after tat v eat something near the gurney, quite alot of stall at there...

take bus go back... all seems very happy and tired. hehe... quite happy tat jia qin brother introduce me to his family. haha... he calls me big brother. haha... happy... hope friendship forever la. then i got chance to meet wit ye juan roommate. philip... quite nice to chat wit them. ye juan noe all my things already except the most important things. later i think i might tell u de... hehe... good night