happy new year

start school almost one week ady. saw back alot of coursemates n bro. haha... wat really cause me feel weird is when meet wit xenon bro. haiz... really no topic. dont know why this bro not so close to me. haha... whatever.

31st dec watch the 12th movie, 十月围城 with coursemates. during the way go to qb, i saw xenon bro riding his bike at the another side of road. haha... this movie caused me cry again... haha... how come shaun knows i cry one? happy new year, cheahow. wish u all this year r happy, healthy and get wealthy. haha...

merry christmas...

last wednesday go japanese restaurant, kizuna wit secondary school juniors... hon fui they all. quite enjoy the meal... so cute the bento.

merry christmas... yest night celebrate wit frens. ka yeng, chee fei and ji yien. thanks for willing to out wit me. pick ka yeng to stadium as he hasnt ate dinner. then after chat awhile, go to church. 2nd time i went to church at christmas eve. haha...

result out liao. yest avatar movie...

result out just now. feel abit happy as i get better for this time. increase to 3.32. big improvement for me compare to last sem 2.97. haha... what u feel? haha... glad abit but i know can become more better if my group assignment get more better. haha... get pull down by that. after that when i know my coursemates better than me... moody ady. haiz... so, work more hard lo...

yest night, watch avatar wit mun mun... rm11, quite expensive but this movie is worth it. the graphic nice. i cant imagine how nice is it if i watched it by 3D screen. haha... pop corns? okla. once a while. wont waste de la. the 10th movie i watch... haha...

life after not work at popular.

long time no write my feeling at here already. well, i have pass my holidays in normally ways... how is it? DramaING everyday. i would like to say thanks to hon fui gang and ka yeng... i join steambot at 2+1, badminton wit hon fui they all... ka yeng tells me the badminton time... thanks. long time no c some of them ady. how come no feeling after meet them? well, long time no meet ady. so, dont have that feeling want to develope friendship wit them. haha... isaac comes back ipoh, dont know why he wants to find me. i also no mood to entertain him...

today afternoon i go to jusco to get my salary back... rm726 shared by me and another colleagus. haiz... i go to find chee fei accompany me because iz wants to meet me but when i go there. this iz out ady. well, cant false him as i really no mood to c him then when he requests i play him. so chee fei and i go to find ms.cheong house then go to find the fortune teller... what the teller said is quite not so accurate. then v go tesco extra to have cendol then go to check whether got bank in anot... nelson, dont have la... tipu. then go bk home ady... haha...

this post got abit over right? haha...

i very dislike people i take care of dont bother my feeling... very disappointed to them. give some examples here, i msn wit him or her, the respondent doesnt reply me. i really hate that situation. well, cheahow, is their right not to reply u. what for u angry? no point one. got many frens also like that... doesnt appreciate my way of concern. well, do u think of u urself got problem? maybe u r too over concern them? haha...

so, start from now... i wont so bother u all... the person that not so concern to me. u know whom i pointed to.

watch movie wit che kwang bro... this 10th time i watch movie in this year.

wat a shockful day. today i went movie wit che kwang bro, the 8th movie i watch as 1.bedtime story 2.cny movie 3. x-men 4. star trek 5. transformer 6. blood: the last vampire 7. harry potter 8. 2012 9. 2012. watch twice 2012, one time wit ye juan. another one wit che kwang bro. this bro ar... play me at the beginning. cannot said play la... just he suddenly said dont want to pick him. ceh...

arrive jusco quite early... finally he comes. long time no c this bro ady. he quite enjoy the movie. cheahow, last time u watch 2012 tears flowing out non-stop. how bout this time? haha... tears rolling also when saw those tragedy. really dont want the apocalypse occur. after movie, go bk...

i feel damn scare when drive to the ipoh town especially this time, nearly get knocked by one car and one bus... due to my lousy driving skills, i caused my passenger, che kwang bro worry. pick him to have lunch then buy ticket then go bk home ady... on the way, v chat happily... i reveal some of my things to him... hipe this bro doesnt jeopordize or look down to me la... haha... long long time i din go chemor ady... ur house is here? quite greenery surroundings. bye... thanks for watch movie and chat wit me today... thanks ya.

finally got holiday liao...

finally i get rid of the work. is it worth? well, the consequences is i get "blacklist" by the manager of popular book shop at ipoh. i cant work at that particular shop ady. btw, u think i will work at there again? next semester break i will be have my intern... then the following semester break, preparing for fyp... after that, graduate ady. degree student still want to work under u? haha...

my holiday gonna start now. what would i want to do? thanks for nelson chear for always pick me to lunch. chat wit me... thanks. hey, che kwang bro thanks for ur advise. haha... its my fault.

go back to work again?

yest early morning his sms comes. the content really shocked me. i tot u will understand me but seems u dint. im playing u? haha... nothing i can say. our brothership let u tot that im playing u? i tot u will understand me. understand i must having something dilemma. need those $ back to cope it. well, maybe i think quite sensitive ady. perhaps my six-sense is wrong but it always not accurate.

when i saw that message, i really dont know how to answer him. haiz... start my first time part-time job. late? haha... nvm. dont know why... after several minutes i work, i feel very unhappy and moody. i dont want to work... seriously i dont work can ar?

after sometimes... i start to develope the thinking of quit. wat should i do??? wat is the most acceptable reason for me to leave??? i also dont know. finally got the guts to sms him. glad that u got reply me. hope u r having great day as today is ur birthday and sincerely hope that our brothership wont get affected due to that issue but i think i cant pretend nothing happened when i saw him. haiz... finish my work for today. bb...

popular book fair

finally finish my work at popular book fair... quite relax... though the opening day from 19 till 23, i dont participate but i start at 24 till yesterday. it was quite tiredsome for me... but i got to work as i really dont have $ ady. really pokai. now i even think of stop the xenon saving acc policy. i know i will let u down but i must do that... hahaha... i must continue working ady in order to repay my debts... hope this coming part-time job, i wont get scolded many many times. after finish the book fair, v guys all have supper at the mcd. then get the rm100... bb. i manage to see my ex-leader. haha... long time no c. end of the book fair...







thats the recent update till now... eric, this bro coming back last weekend but din manage to meet wit me. wat la... u said can meet at saturday de... when at night, he sms me said no time... cause me quite sad... u...

recall back the memory when ka yeng comes....

send ye juan bro to sg nibong at the following day... have lunch wit him before he left. bb... bro. wilbur bro??? haha... really dont know how to response to him... haha... min sheng bro returns the external to me at noon. bro, bb... prepare for the next movement... ka yeng bro comes. cheahow, where is ur GL? slip it???? u r very lazy. because ka yeng comes? well, this is not an excuse... after the camera lost, really dont have extra mind to think about other things. haiz... no mood. ka yeng bro comes... pick me go around uni... v board the blue bus then loiter around... then go to tekun block to have a look... then they two stay at my room when i was packing up.



he is sleeping at my bed. sorry, too messy ady... haha...

tonight they two go to meet chun hoe bro whereas me? go OXO wit tgoy members... this time got alot of members dont go back home. chris, jojo, cling, tim, daniel, candy, jeffrey and christine also no yet go bk. so v play together at there. i bring something to tim's house then v go to have mamak food nearby qb mall there... saw alot of people standby at there... they join the penang bridge marathon... v have some fun at there... haha... then v go bk home ady... bye to all my members. sorry to ka yeng and his fren for waiting me at there. i should put my keys at the windows there. so that they can get the key to enter my room and rest. sorry....

at the following day, i wake up quite early to pick they go to the running path... queensbay, alot of car park along the road. haha... go bk to continue my rest then pick them when they run finish... pick them back to my hostel and let them bath... then pick his fren to the bus stop at the gate there... bb... then pack the things to the car then have meal wit him at bali2. ka yeng quite envy me as i can get chinese food easily at outside. haiz... i dont know how to react. then v went to u-height to put down luggage to there... okla, go back lo.... pick foong yee then start to go bk to nibong tebal... ka yeng bro's room is quite nice compare to me... aiyooo... then go bk wit his luggage together... foong yee not dare to rest... she quite sympathy on me to drive alone. ka yeng bro? tidur terus... haha... finally i arrive foong yee house then ka yeng bro is ur turn... finally go bk my house safely...

recall back the memory after exam.... watch 2012 wit ye juan bro

finally this bro got time to play wit me ady... ye juan bro... v not chat for over one months ady. haha... have lunch together then go to watch 2012 movie together at queensbay. this movie the effect is quite superb... it causes me cry when i saw alot of human being dead... the tears flowing out... haha... after that brought him to buy ticket back to kl have dinner with tgoy members at small hut house. then xenon bro celebration...

recall back the memory during celebrate xenon bro birthday.

at the following day is another date wit xenon bro... no mood to celebrate wit him after i drop camera but since i go back home at sunday that i promised to foong yee ady so the plan still on. quite mad with xenon bro as i asked him few days ago that play together at 9pm but the way he act... haiz... really drive me mad. i feel want to kill him. i really eager to celebrate wit him de but seems things is not run smooth. finally i manage to ask him out. xenon bro, too late ady. secret recipee this cake no more ady. v went to oxo... xenon, happy birthday... ask the singer to sing happy birthday song to him, got the cake... not so delicious.



then second round go to beach there... chat for awhile then play him birthday song by using violin... haha... so shy, crowded at there.... haha... xenon bro, bye. this cookies and biscuit is for ur parents de. bb...

recall back the memory during exam week.... i lost kai yi's camera

finally finish my exam... quite long time no write something here ady. i stop to write during study week and exam period. haha... this semester finally i dare to bring my car to uni ady. first time bring it here... hehe... thanks to my parents. first passengers is tgoy members... then is teong hoong bro. actually i prefer teong hoong bro be the first one but nvmla. teong hoong, my driving skill is sucks leh... haha... pick him to pekaka dinner. then go bk to study ady.

after the exam, v all directly go to gurney plaza to sing k. at first, v plan to go DAO buffett but dont know why change the plan already. i not dare to drive up tho the parking lot therefore jojo bro... help me to bereskan. have lunch at there then sing k... at night something occurred. i drop kai yi's bro digital camera at upper penang road. i felt very scared... helpless... luckily tgoy members help me to find. they all go back to upper penang road help me find then shaun, jojo and chris help me go back to batu feringgi there to find. quite touch... eventually cant find... so wat could i do is to work during holiday to repay kai yi. haiz.... so bad luck.

tonight v go many places. first, v go gurney then go the restaurant very near to the beach there have dinner. then upper penang road, go to mois, then opposite mois... i also dont know wat name ady. then v go to batu ferringgi there to have drink, v share alot at there then v go to subaidah at outside... haiz...

this incident caused me want to go bk home asap... i no mood to celebrate birthday wit xenon bro... no mood to attend GL activity... haiz...

my parents

i know they two very love me... but i dont know why everytime when i at uni, i also lazy to go back. dont have the mood to go bk home... sorry. when i recalled back the way i treat them, i feel very guilty and shameful to myself. my parents r very superb sayang me. in return, i always let them down. sorry, daddy mummy. im not good son.

today dad wakes me up. eat breakfast together. suddenly my aunt appeared... aunt sue, long time no c. how r u? she hugs me from back. luckily i got bath else smelly, give her bad impression. throw me this question again. haha... aunt, u cause me confused again. i will go once i graduate... she replied u plan to work back at malaysia? what for u want that degree? haha... then she talks about the eyesight problem. "u dare to undergo lasik?" when she heards about rm5k, change topic ady... haha...

today dad is very sayang me. cannot said very sayang. he sayang me all the days de. pick me to lunch then train me to drive along the road. dad, thanks... i wont let u down while i drive along the road. but im still scare.

insomnia...

Having insomnia. How come like that one? Is it u thinking how to give surprised to xenon bro? or is it u too eager want him to come over then? Plan exclusive activities to him? Haha… cheahow, this wont happened at ur life. So, don’t think about that, ok? Go back to rest. Ok?

One things, do u really want to drive car to penang? Don’t u scare? Don’t you worry that the car get crashed or u having accident? Choi, touch wood, pls… Haha… OK, go back to rest, pls…. Night.

first time this xenon bro knows my room...

feel very very extra glad when know that this bro places me in the 1st rank at usm. haha... today pass very meaningless. haha... dont even flip a page of books. cool man. cheahow, right till now what have u been done? well, im not fully utilised my times. i din grab it and let it pass away... sigh.

teong hoong bro, ur paper ok mar? haha... got abit unhappy tat he said not ok... haha... wish u, get do in the paper next week la... haha...

xenon bro at first want to date me for supper... at the end he gots to deal wit something. therefore rejected me. feel abit dissappointed, not angry. luckily i got my own party, date wit ice and yiling juniors. else, haha... dont know wat to do ady. when reach almost 11pm, i received sms from this bro, want to get drama from me? haha... how come at a sudden time, he will sms me? arent this bro get it from his gf? feel abit shy when he knows my room at where. cool man. how can u know it? it doesnt show my picture at there. well, he knows my slipper. aiyoo... "u open ur room urself..." i no eyes to watch ady. hey, take me to tekun there. ok? how come u so free now can have lunch wit me tmr? haha... argue abit wit him about previous times when i asked him out, he rejected me.

when he starts his motor... i found out that groups of ppl sat at the bus stop there. is him? ye juan bro? haha... i dont know.. but i think is him. nvm, he doesnt greet wit me is his own right. wat can i do? nothing la. i long time dont c him since last time i wrote love letter to xenon bro, that time i need ppl use stapler... i think around one month already. haha.. nvmla. actually around the brothers, he is consider good ady. haha... compare to that wilbur bro. no eyes to c. haha...

finally i fulfilled my dream. got one brother pick me to across that bridge. feel really really happy at that time. this is my dream lai de... can fulfilled already. haha...

ice come out... yi ling, come out... haha... ice doesnt show up... chat wit yi ling... share my point of view to her regarding to her problem. yi ling, cheer up lo. dont follow my past, ok? hahaha... sms to che kwang bro, ask him out. i tot he wont reply my sms one. finally he also shown out. follow back to his room. dont know why leh? maybe i think too much. he wants to halau me... when clock almost reach 1pm but then he said to me before, his sleeping hours is around that time. ok... sorry. this bro is indifferent wit xenon bro. how to say? he plans to send me back to hostel by his bike but i refuse. after refuse, i feel paiseh pulak because he said im guest... quite touched... haha... finally he also escort me back to lobby there. haha... i dont know how to go bk la... lost again like yesterday... haha...

2nd time stay at xenon bro's room so long.

seng aik, u r so "nice". last time said allow me to get gossip gals but now... due to sleepy, rejected me? fine.... ok.... ye juan bro, ok... its ok u dont pass me ur external... haha... fine... haha....

just come back from xenon room 1.5 hours ago. well, the 2nd time i wit him but this time i do feel guilty. y? because his exam not yet finish. well, sorry. i shouldnt enter ur room. v do chat alot. ask him about the chocolate, the insurances issue... v start to debate about alot of things. he shares his family background wit me. thanks... really thanks. got something quite make me shocked de is u, still kept all my "love" letter and u willing to take care of me when i said i got infected those very very cronic disease. haha... thanks alot ya. got alot alot of things v do share together just now, dog issue... my interpersonality issue... alot. i do feel very happy but when i saw i disturbed u, feel quite guilty. cheahow, dont be too greedy ya. haha...

i do want to sleep here but exam... so better i leave. i tot he wants to halau me one yet he allows me to stay quite late... haha... thanks. bro... i expose to u about my real personality, i hope really hope u dont mind. i mean the perception which u develope at ur mindset about me dont get deducted... haha... thanks for ur compliment, im more sensative then women. haha...

in future, i do hope i can stay at ur hometown and work... but i also dont know my way is wat. really dont know.

finish one more paper, leave one.

finally got some time to write back my blog ady. haha... does it consider blog? u lock it already wor. haha... finished 1 more paper. technology communication. this paper when i start to do it... i feel very sleepy. it must be the effect of overnight. what i have memorised, i wrote out ady. personally i felt this paper got abit difficult as i dont prepare it well. too many things to remember. well, what have done cant redo again. so... pass it la.

have lunch wit tgoy members. after tat, rest time. late go to swim... nvm, have meal wit them. really enjoy the moment wit them. 2nd time I went to that café again after wit kok members. Haha… wah, u 3 eat durians…? Yee… go back to tim house again. v all having fun at there, relax... haha... how come jasmine doesnt sms me invite me geh? haha... no comment. i wont go if she doesnt invite me... hehehe... v all watch resident evil 3 together... i pick randomly then v all watch together... certain part i react too exaggerated. well, its nature for me but for them a big guy... haha...

how come u call me, mr.xenon? okok... i will end this and go find u but he stops me... ok then. wait till v settle then only go find u ok? by the time v escort lih ying goes back. this bro dont need me ady. haha... well, its ok for me.

tmr 2012 at queensbay... cool. looking forward.

some updates from me.

just finished 2 papers, still got 3 more left. 1 lesson that i learned from today paper is i should read the instruction given first. should flip thru all the pages of paper first. due to my kelailaian, i cant answer another question which shown at the last page there... haha... quite funny...

recently my life quite disrupted. always rest quite late. i would like to say thanks to kean sam. he is the one who accompany me to study. without him, i cant imagine how i passed my study week. without his guidance, i think i wont study efficiently. thanks ya.

thanks to teong hoong bro. he is the one who ate wit me bsides kean sam. thanks ya. i cant believed this bro really fulfilled his promised. i tot u wont considered my suggestion but in fact, he does. he brought me to pekaka there, that shop i went before last year during lantern festival with tgoy. thanks alot. i swear i will workhard to cherish our brothership. thanks alot...

tgoy are going to Dao buffet and batu ferringgi enjoy the banana boat and others water sport. well, how about u, CH? which one u prefer? well, i really do not know.

xenon bro, u caused me worried. haha... thanks to all who helped me at study week...

feel warmth when received ur sms, xenon bro. last fri, this bro told me he infected red eyes disease. so, he cant c me. quite worried hin so i offer myself go to visit him. at first, he doesnt allowed but after several sms bombarded him. finally, he permits. haha... pack the things there, small goodies bag that got chocolate, hometown cookies, receipt and letter... haha... his room at 4-21? haha... one day before mine. arrived, open the doors. wah, so handsome... with sunglasses. i really eager to enter his room but cannot. timing not good, got to exam. so, walk back.

on the way back, received sms caused me quite shocked and touched... "Thk a lot. bro... o nv tink that u walk hr so far jz to deliver the warmer present to support me. Very touching bro. 19 of nov i wil try my best to c u. On my cming birthday, as long as u giv me a sincere n warmest wish jiu ok le. I wont 4get wat u did to me during my uni life. as long as i rmb usm, i ate chocolate, i wear watch, i will rmber u... 422..."

haha... thanks alot too, mr.xenon. if u were gal, sure i will chase for u but u r not. so, brothers forever. study week end today.... so, have u prepared? haha... thanks to kean sam, kean lin bro. kean sam, thanks for accompany me at the study room to study. kean lin offer me rm5 to have meal. as well as kean sam, lend me rm5 to get the pnwang notes from candy. candy, thanks for photostat to me ya.

i will remember this moment wit u... teong hoong bro.

teong hoong brother, thanks. i never tot that it would become real. i tot u will take it for granted one. this bro really picks me go out to have dinner. so, what i have to do to repay is share wit him chocolate from AUS. thanks for picking me go out to have meal. i will remember this moment. this is the 1st time v ate at outside. haha... thanks alot. i will cherish our brothership de. thanks.

this bro is quite nice, very 细心. last time i wait for him as my meal arrived first at bali2 restaurant then this time, he waits for me. u hungry anot? haha... kinda glad tat this culture still got executed. haha... bro, this is the place where i learn violin... u r the 1st bro i told that to u. others i dont tell them... haha...

cheahow, u r sucks... sucker. how come ur life is like that one? haiz... the problem still exist. what should i do? i also dont know. haiz.... wait after exam then only start to figure out la.

pokai ady...

congratulations. now out of money ady... cheahow is facing financial crisis. account only left rm10. how do i survive? i dont know... seriously dont know. i hope got john tan, ye juan will help me. cheahow, how do u open ur mouth and request? quite ashamed...

meet wit xenon bro and che kwang bro, thanks for chat me whole night.

yesterday i met wit xenon bro face to face... so happy! long time no meet him ady. this guy just finished his some sort like exam. he said that he is not doing well, abit emo. xenon bro, my condition also same wit urs only. today presentation is sucks. i really got feeling want to kill my members. haha... but nvmla. xenon picks me to eat dimsum. 2nd time i went there since 1st year when v end our final exam. that time i ate wit tgoy members. wait... my wallet only rm5. u treat me? haha... bro, this food nice mar? haha... when u come to ipoh, i bring u to eat dimsum. that time u will know the difference. he picks some of the dimsum... egg tart and one place of ..... which i dont know how to describe it. chat for awhile then start to sign some document. at the end, i also contribue rm5 out of rm7.2. u said u will bring me go batu ferringi one ya.... this time i really cant go p.langkawi ady.

thanks for pick me to cimb bank and back to hostel. after tat, rest awhile then go out to pay the international penang bridge run. print the slip at pro-M counter there. go back lo... sms to wilbur bro and invite him to eat wit me. at the time i go there, he ady ate finish. i really expect u will chat wit me awhile but in vain. haiz... nvmla, is his style. really is his mode. no blame. meeting... then rush to restu cafe. thanks to tia... thanks alot. chat wit che kwang bro. 1st time i enter his room. he is studying now. bro, u really dont mind mar? thanks for explain to me patiently. he is quite patient and nice. i hope u wont feel weird or look down at me...

thanks for pick me bk. night.

2 hours witout vehicles??? hahaha.. finally have dinner wit rhu yann senior.

today is quite nice day for me. wake up at 11am though i feel tat its too over. haiz.... really got to study ady. pls... then have lunch wit tiong hoong bro. at there, i saw alot of my coursemates. they just finished their lsp 300. xin yi bro also at here? wah... that superb amazing. bro, i long time no have lunch wit u ady. so nice... tiong hoong he doesnt come yet, so i chat wit xin yi bro awhile. tiong hoong bro brings his roommate come. abit surprised for me. haha... how come tiong hoong and his roommate knows xin yi one? haha... sit wit xin yi bro again. sit back wit my coursemates and listen their crap... haha...

2day quite special. 2.30 till 4.30pm is usm free vehicle period. 1st time implemented that. go to meeting. settle my ads assignment. i dont contribute much at that assignment. haha... go to CG again to take away... haha...

wat? rhu yann invite me to have dinner? wah... once in a blue moon. at first, kinda cold the conversation. rhu yann senior voice is too low and the speed is quite fast. i cant hear properly... su ee senior... okok. thanks for give me some knowledge about the pharmacy. okla, thanks senior. i hope tiong hoong brothership can exist la... haha... thanks for being my brother ya.

final week of lecture week

final week of lecture week. is the hectic week for persuasive student. i dont know others major but i do feel tat busy. cheahow, do u fully utilised the time to study, revision? well, no. i dont have time to do those. well, do u really sure that u dont have time? haha... ur time management not good enough, cheahow. so, next time pls... for ur sake.

today YKT 214 presentation. not dare to play in front of coursemates as my leader is daniel. so, i not dare. thanks for sk bro and xenon bro cheer up. haha... i saw his jason senior at C10... long time no c. thanks to celine and pinni lunch. both of them treat us. haha... thanks.

take away from CG. meet jason and his gang again. haha... at the replacement ads class, i tell lie to coursemate. she asked me whether i got present at the final lecture of acc. nola, i dont go. in fact, i got go. haha... after consult wit nick, lee hon bro.... ok wit it. leehon brother, erm.... thanks for enter my life. thanks alot. hope frenship wont break... haha...

got to fulfilled what i have been swear.

is my problem... thats why got to 反省... xenon, really got to obey the things that i promised to him. no need to shape, persuade, reinforce his mindset ady. hard to do that. u want to do wat also i wont complain. haha... only ask u go have meal wit me also no time. those assignment, test, quiz reasons i listen dont know how many times ady. what should i do? accept it? haha... well, i have to. i found out usm fren around me mostly r nerd.

from now on, u should accept it. treat urself better. pamper urself more...

sushi bonanza + german ambassador

thanks for pick me to sushi king. thanks alot. this bro comes to redeems his birthday present and helping me at quiz. thanks mickey bro. i got chance to meet wit his fren. 3 of them... haha... if this time i dont out wit him, i dont know i still got chance to enjoy this bonanza at the following years anot. i ate 5 plates, mickey six plates. charge 21. haha... thanks. after tat he picks me back then v head to german faces malaysia. u cant attend the meeting la. thanks for pick me back to hostel. mickey, take care ya. thanks for today.



listen to the forum then go to work. quite free. got chance to take picture wit two ambassador of german. haha... thanks.

my two brothers come to main campus... welcome to main campus.

phan chuen ling, dont so rude to me can? its my pendrive, so the decision whether want to pass to u anot is made by me. dont take my pendrive so simply. u know how to use manner word? please, thanks, welcome... u know how to use anot?

"hello, cheahow, where r u? im now at ur uni..." i feel tremble when i know tat. ka yeng at uni. ok, i will go later. tat time i attend the meeting. senior, i got class, can hurry up? thanks. rush to there. i met wit ka yeng. he wants to drive the 4 wheel drive.

he aske me calo at where? he gots come here also? i saw him sitting at the exhibition there. go there to say welcome to usm main campus. i board car with both of them. arent i too active? he doesnt invite me also just calo. haha... 2nd time i board this car last time is with chee oh brother. help them snap picture wit both of them, cant, hand shiver. so ask his engineering friend. i forget to take picture wit them at here... got abit waste. however, i will remember this day when they two also got come from engineering campus...

bye, two brothers. after they left, suddenly i think of how come ka yeng calls me? instead of calo? well, finally i know that ka yeng this guy got abit warmth one compare to that calo... cool man. if ka yeng doesnt said, i wont get know both of them got come. thanks ka yeng.







volkswagen exhibiton over. i got abit emo. haha... at last, i also cant get the chance to drive the EOS. haha... so wat can i do is take the car picture... take alot... thanks, volkswagen. i know i cant get u in future(pessimit thinking). at least, u offer me chance to drive. thanks.

at night have dinner wit jack brother. thanks for having dinner wit me... haha... else, this dinner i got to eat alone lo. haha... thanks alot. i will cherish our friendship de. haha...

cheahow, today ur target is to finsih all subject chapter 1 n 2 right? why u dont executed it? haha...

volkswagen... german week.

u know u love me, xoxo, gossip boy... haha... i like this "slogan". recently i really change alot ady. i mean after i mix wit my ykt211's malay teammate. change bk to last time, the one crazy nuts cheahow. suddenly one thinking pop out from my mind. how nice if they all r chinese... why u suddenly think like that? well, right till now i also cant mix roundly wit chinese coursemates well. got one big boundaries between me and them. right till now, i also use wat mode to face wit them. haha...

cheahow, this week suddenly join german week helper. how come like that one? becaue of the reward, got cert and t-shirt. oh yeah!!! im realistic one.

chee oh, long time no c u after two months ago... how r u? v met at the volkswagen exhibition.



the lucky draw winner is chong chea how... so happy, i get the prize. sticker... worth rm15. thanks!!! first time i won prizes at USM. volkswagen exhibiton is superb nice. got car test driving. alex test 4 wheel drive to pick me. thanks. this brother changes alot. he is not ordinary chee oh. now he is very talkative. suddenly i feel abit envy on him as he changes ady. dont know y suddenly he can achieve like that. v do chat alot at IK cafe. thanks for ur advices... but alex, i got class at 3pm one. haiz... but nvmla. that class is not important one. i wont 拍 ppl leg anymore as its no manner. thanks for ur advise. thanks, alex. after tat, i act crazy at the class. sing song... act those stupid act... cheahow, r u nuts?

this monday, i go out ate wit them. small hut house. long time no eat together at that place since tim's birthday at august. then, go to tesco walk wit them...

xenon receive the leter ady... dont know what he reacts... haha... tuesday, cheahow meet with chee oh bro again to get the notes and pass the sticker to him as he reqeust me two times ady. haha... give u as birthday present.



cheahow goes to drive beetle... FRIST time drive auto gear.... first time drive volkwagen... thanks to keh ping help me snap picture... got tutorial advertising. i still cant upgrade my marks to 9. got abit unhappy tat time because i found out that my coursemates are far more advance than me. that time really sad.. no mood. haiz... thanks to ivan senior, he cheers me up at that time. ching kei brother? haha... he cant dependable one. cheahow, wat u must do now is to grow slowly...

research paper... hahah... so "nice".

this afternoon i start meeting wit them till 6 something. sit there for 5 hours. cool... long time dont do like that ady. haha... dinner ate wit nabihah and nik. after tat, rush to the dancing competition. support jojo, wilbur and my coursemates who took part. haha...

congratulations to wilbur. u have made it. after that, continue my work. write letter to xenon brother. thanks to ye juan brother, he lend his stapler and pen to me. thanks. but i cant chat wit him much as i got to YC wit lih ying because i suddenly received call from lih ying? wat? supper? so weird. she wants discuss jazz band to me. if im wealth enough, i will join without hesitately. but this time, sorry. i got to work. really got to work in order to return the debt.

night...

one siswa one malaysia.

quite worry my $ will finish off. now only left rm300. can i manage to survive till i finish exam? the answer is dont know. well, if i really got, i think i will ask help from ye juan brother. this brother wont sentences me to hell de. i mean he will do something in order for me to survive. so, dont worry, ok? only left rm300+ still go et kfc? aiyoo...

thanks to kean sam and his fren, accompany me go to the one siswa malaysia. thanks. else i will go alone ady. haiz... the performance is nice. well, i can the integrity of different races' dance. nice... i met wit some of my coursemtes. hello... suddenly a small familiar body in front of me. xenon... dont want to approach him as i dont know hwo to response but finally he saw me... aiks... only answer several works then i go off ady. no eyes to c them. after tat supper wit kean sam and his fren them. thanks alot.

thanks rhu yann brother for analyze the MCA's politics issue to me. thanks. thanks to yoyo also... chat wit me. thanks.

enjoy the loneliness.

luckily got junior watch tat performance wit me. else, i really dont know watch wit who ady. my coursemates? well, they all... no unionity ady. as rhu yann senior said, i got to adapt. get use... so enjoy the loneliness ya.

got abit mad wit xenon, sms no reply. so i tell him. 5 sen? somemore he is not always together with the phone? well, if like tat then no sms to u. dont u will regret by saying so. cheahow? well, i think i got to do that? if not, my emotion will totally get influence by his sms.

che kwang brother? haha... better dont always asked him how to meet as he is busy... well, he is nerd indeed. different world wit me. haha... so i think next time dont so close wit him also la. again, do u regret, cheahow? well, he is nerd... no time to me de.

finish one presentation. haha...

finally members come out and prepare the slides. after that, v finish the presentation. wat im really worry of finally gone. the presentation is ok, still can manage to create alot of laughter. seems all the coursemates laugh and laugh. however, i found out my group punye presentation content is not as in detail as others. haiz... nvm then as it pass ady. wat can v do is to create good piece of paper work.







how come so many ppl laugh when my group present? is it because the first slides where v put our picture at there? haha... how come got 5 minutes spare time? haha... thanks for the question ask by nisha, pitcaya and siaw yin. haha... so difficult. hehe... after finish, i go to take picture wit christopher, one malay fornal, one western formal... haha... thanks christopher. vivienne cant take picture wit us as she leaves early.

then v have our supper at nazri tomyam there. finish our day at sleeping. thanks for my group member. i dont know komunikasi dan budaya v still can work together anot but thanks alot. haha...

i help u...

when i wake up tat time, i saw the reply from this bro. i feel moody. haiz... seems no energy to do things. attend class wit moody mode. haha... well, thanks to shin er and yoyo who concern me at the early morning and afternoon.

afternoon, i received call from pui kuan. so fast married? aiyoo... at first, i promised to her but rejected. reason is at sunday, cant go bk. monday got the final class..... haha... sorry.

after class, i decided go to check my account, i got <1k. cheahow, do u really want to help xenon bro buy the saving account insurans? well, no choice. really dont have choice to choose from. from the day he works as insurans agent, i should predict tat i cant escape ady. im his bro, if i dont help i will feel guilty. however, if i help, i really will face some financial crisis. luckily got ptptn cover. well, cheahow. how about ur ptptn finish ady? wat should u do? this question is too far away, i cant predict now.

have dinner wit tony at CG. i finish class at 5pm. i got to sit at CG there for 2 hours to wait him come. initially, he said 630pm but change to 7pm. i got c wilbur bro but this guy cool again. last time when he wit me, he eats fast and go bk. however, this time when he wit a gal, he waits the gal finish. so unfair! but i as outsider cant give any comment. therefore, blog is the most suitable channel for me to express it. after 7pm, he comes ady. tony, why u go my room to pick me leh? i was at CG for 2 hours ady. haha... thanks ya. i met wit jack brother. i share the xenon issue wit him. v 3 guys chat at there. thanks for jack advise. haiz... dont know wat to do. 1st time i went to tony's house.

after go bk hostel, sms to this guy... xenon, fine. i surrender. i help u...... haiz. i dont know wat is the consequences. for sure i cant return the kai loon's debt.

this weekend. 中秋节快乐

有状元不做，跑去做秀才？ from uncle calvin to my mum about my incident of the UM cases. again??? UM again? haiz....

Eric brother goes bk to ipoh during mooncake festival. wao... happy to c him again. this time the moment v meet is quite precious as dad need to take the car to fill the air. eric, how r u? flu wor. u ok mar? eric, u know how i miss u. eric, thanks for the file that u share wit me. i will go to revise when i got time. eric... thanks thanks thanks alot. our status is quite indifferent(just my own perception) but when u heard of it, u deny it. eric, thanks. i will cherish our brothership de. thanks, eric. this guy is my brother at hometown. he is very vital to me. thanks for request from ur mum to have supper wit me. thanks alot. though cant but ur action cause me abit touched. prove u r care me of. thanks.

saturday supper wit uncle calvin from canada. uncle, thanks for ur treat at the cafe shop, the place where i online and thanks for ur treat at supper at samto restaurant. he gives me some of the advices. haha... good bye, sir.

then start my junior to kl. i met wit several relatives then go bk penang ady. thanks for the pick, uncle eddie.

cheahow, surprised!!! i send wrong email to dr.nik. she knows my intention already. haha... xenon, thanks for ur pick. he me back to uni from sg.nibong and thanks for the ride to places find me for the supper.




thanks for bring me back to uni fr sg.nibong. he brings me bk to my hostel then go to photostat. said want to bring me out to eat. haha... at first, khaleel but i deny. then i suggest apex cafe but v dont know how to go then go across oxo. so stop here. wah... so nice the feel... thanks. during the pick, i manage to c alot of places. i mean v loiter many places. haha... great experience.

i hate u, xenon. really hate u. y? u start to promote the plans wit me. what is ur reaction if ur brother suddenly start to sell things wit u? well, i really cant adapt to it. so, im gonna to say goodbye to our brothership as u dont respect our friendship. well, do u think properly, cheahow? i know i might be regret of the action but i cant stand of it. he suddenly do this to me. i cant totally cannot understand. i know ur intention was good. but do u know? i got 2 plans already? saving insurances and the medical card? so, stop...... i will feel sad for some moment but life must go on.

this week....

got certain period of time do not write something at here. recently quite busy wit my stuff. so dont have enough time to write things at here. after bk from the raya holiday, really rush. 1st time experience that i will die, trembling when imagined of the consequences that i got to bear with if i cant compelete it on time. dont want........ however, miracle occur to me. i tot i cant complete all the task but i manage to do it. assignment, settle. test, though dont have time to prepare but i manage to read it finish(skim thru at the end of the chapater). quiz, thanks to mickey and kean lin, both of them help me alot. haha...

yesterday i take part in shooting. help out tim, jeffrey, nelson and vivi assignment. on the way to the tekun cafe, i met wit xenon suddenly. pass the mooncake to him then left ady. lack of interaction. night, i have dinner wit kaito. thanks for ur invitation... then supper with kean sam, this guy is quite nice... hahaha. he talks more than me. self-exposure to me alot. whereas me? i dont know how to present myself to him. haiz... cheahow, u r sucks.

now wat i worry is another assignment, dr.nik. cheahow, do u think this time u group wit wrong ppl? well, no comment as it is the arrangement of god. haha... so just follow the way it go. i dont have any comment.

thanks to CG's cafe auntie, she said to me today afternoon she found out my face appear on the press. wah... so excited. due to that, i go to library 1 to find the newspaper but instead. i online to search this news. yeah, get it ady.

after swimmming, i spotted wilbur bro at cafe. he is very cool to me. he doesnt bother me about my intention bring mooncake to him. haiz... waste my effort. during whole session, i persuade him about this but in vain. wat can i do? pass this to ye juan brother lo. ye juan, u r not substitution because u r rich. somemore from kl, sure got alot of chance to enjoy this desert.

express all my feeling out wit xenon bro. i dont know la. just dont have the mood to c him. maybe after exam ba... chaehow, u must remember that most important is u urself whether happy anot. dont regret. so this decision is wise mar? i think neutral. it really can help me for not rely too much on this guy. not c him near to 2 months ady. wat i mean is do not chat and share our feeling for 2 months. so... u think u can survive without him? well, yup. i can.

tmr go bk to hometown to meet wit eric bro, celebrate mid-autumn wit family... cool... but got to do some homework. one quiz. key in data, then literature review, then the reading.... alot.

redo my assignment???

just now really shocked. my heart stop pumping already when i see the post post by tim. the content is quite the same. got the similarity. this time my tears rolled at the eye, feel very nervous and scare. god, i work quite hard at this assignment. pls! pls! let me get thru. thanks to shu wen, she helps me check. though the answer given by her is not clear but i also want to thanks her. i msn to leader,daniel. he doesnt reply me. i mean he doesnt give the reply instantly. thanks shu wen. u r my good fren. i will cherish our frenship since u treat me not bad de. pass the quiz to me, thanks alot. really thanks alot.

coursemates around me wher i can lean on become less and less. i got jojo, siaw yin, eunice's group, li ping, phay theng only. others i cant depend so much. y u said like that? not close enough to share my homework wit them. haha... thats why, cheahow poor relationship, 人缘差. just now daniel reply me, he says first come first serve. i know but daniel, tats why v send topics to u. let u c our topics whether is good anot. haiz... he causes me feel want to cry... this time really feel sad and helpless. do i need to read the articles again? well, i dont know. let god decide for me. inside our both content, i found out really not same. mine one focus on studies, the course. whereas, tim's assignment focus on the discrimination.

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god, pls kill me.

thanks to janice... is eunice. thanks. i quite admire her. i mean she always look very top. i mean high confidence. always look no problem. maybe she is reading my blog now. hey, gal. im not purposely to praise u ya. haha... thanks for ur advise. life simplier. happy is the most important. else i will stray. yup, u r very accurate.

soon will go bk to uni. wat is ur feel chea how? well, i think i really will die once i step into uni. it seems my preparation for the assignment not yet prepare enough. haha... all the assignment come together... god, pls kill me.

busy holiday...

this time i really died. i got alot of work to do. really faint lo. i hope this holiday i got time to cope some of them. mana tau, till now cant settle. i got many assignment to do. first time i feel helpless suddenly.

suddenly get know of the quiz how come change date ady? or i so stupid, lack of alertness? haiz... thanks to jasmine and lih ying post at the facebook. else, i get zero marks ady. thanks to both of them complain the heavy work load at the fb there. thanks...

later got to start to work hard ady. T-T... advertising assignment, literature review and permasalahan kajian, two accountings quiz, pnwang essay tat post at the internet......... i dont want ar.....

bore...

Bore... Really bore. Gather wit last time secondary school fren, dalmit n krishnan. Long time no c them. I tot they ll talk sth nutritious. Yet they talk about gals. whole communication talk about how to court gal, swt...

Thx to rhu yann senior. he gives some offer to me hw to show my expression to them. Bore... Long time no c them for long time already. Haiz... Time pass so fast. I hope can go bk hm...

Xenon.bro, suddenly say hi to me. When i intend to chat wit him... No response... Haiz.

just now wit che kwang bro

today quite weird. my stomach dont know why can get use of the emptiness. i mean i dont consume any food yet it still dont fgive any response to me. haha... dont u scare of infected gastric? haha... today lazy go out to eat. so, torture my stomach. sorry.

ryu yann senior, i think got to stop msn wit him. i mean reduce the frequency to disturb him. haha... y? i got bit worry my passion will scare him off.

cant stand of the disire to enjoy the kfc at outside sg.2. so got to walk to there subsequently go to lib 2 to get the info on the pnwang assignment. however, the library closed. why u close? this time i die. the return of the book is this coming week but im at ipoh. how? i hope will open tonight but tonight i got to go wit che kwang bro. i saw wilbur brother at the bus stop. he doesnt greet me again. well, no comment.

start to go the temple ady. this time is the first time he picks me go so far by motor. 1st time got ppl pick me go out of usm so far by motorbike. good memory. when he ride across the slope, i feel quite shy. sorry, im too heavy ady. really sorry. thanks for pick me there. i got chance to learn the practical way to pray. i hate to do the practical part but i got to get use of it.

thanks to che kwang bro bring me here. quite enjoy the moment wit him. he quite care, though quite little moment v two together but thanks to u. haha... this was the 1st time i caught in the rain when ride motorbike. 1st time at usm. i hate this when at ipoh. how bout ur feel? happy... as wit che kwang brother mar. got somebody accompany me. of course feel happy la. somemore my uni life need some excited moment like ryu hann senior said. haha... thanks, i wont forget this moment wit u. chinese calender 1st of august. haha...

yesterday wit wilbur.

violin class is getting tougher and tougher. haiz... sir, dont know y start to emo wit me ady. i mean he sets his expectation to me ady.

thanks to kah mun, help me take something back to ipoh. thanks to kean lin who accompany me eat dinner last night. so surprise that whole block of ivory black out. so, i enjoy the moment wit kean lin at istimewa without any strong lights. however, the food is too slow. tats y kean lin always complain.

finally yesterday i got chance to chat wit wilbur brother. this brother is kinda funny and abit careless this time. he doesnt check whether his hostel's cafe got opened anot yet ask me to go there. when i found out it doesnt open, i feel quite funny. im not upset or wat, just feel funny. v two discuss a lot, self-exposure alot. he shares wit me his problem as well as me too. do i changed? haha... he also can feel that.

one thingy quite touched me is he said want to find out those ppl who cause me change and beat him/her. haha... well, i also dont know who is the culprit but i think right now im ok wit myself.

this week thingy

this one got one thing that i quite happy. tat is i offer my help to celine and pinni on the shot. i feel so happy that i can act. haha... why u so eager to do that? got two reason. 1 is because last time they all got shot, i mean coursemate they all. 2 is i want to do something special. i mean extraordinary, dont want always life at the normal life. want to try something different. hahaha...

how about ur relationship wit ur brothers? xenon wants to meet wit me at last monday but being rejected by me. sunday night the moment he sms wit me, im very excited and happy one. haha... so y u rejected him? is it because he wants to share his company, Great Eastern's policy to u? well, i think no. because i dont know how to face him and i dont want to argue wit him again. so just rejected. bsides tat, i also feel myself so weak. y is me always sms him and ask him out leh? har? haha... dont know la.

ye juan brother ar? haha... as smooth as usual. wilbur bro? no comment. he is always no news one. haha... eric? this brother is busy. dont want to disturb him. che kwang brother? well, im looking forward to the hang out wit him. haha...

yesterday i went to 1st year communication class to present GREEN LUNG. so sucks on the public presentation. haiz... carl, u r doing unethical thingy right? go to get all the communication from dr.zin's email, send to all of them to promote USM freeze? haha... but im glad tat got ppl know.

happy > worry?

I dont know later when i go class, my pessimit thinking will come back anot but now im high. what i mean is just now im very high and happy but now become worry again. sad and sorrow come back to me. carl, u sick ady? well, i think i will go seek for counsellor soon.

carl, pls pls dont go bk to the pessimistic me. must change back to normal. think of UM incident... haha...

just now xenon brother asked me out. should i feel happy? well, i think is i asked him one. not he asked me la. well, reject to him, postpone to october la as i dont know what mode to face him since so many argument and uncorrect judgement between us.

argue wit xenon via sms... haiz. thanks to you two willing to have dinner and supper wit me.

got argument wit xenon bro ady due to tat message. he said i like to 埋怨. at first i deny as i explained tat just i express my feeling to the person tat i close wit. he reply said i should talk to him wit the problem, not 埋怨. well, i use back the knowledge tat i have learned during communication class. dont judge a book's by its cover. i just send sms to u, not face to face, talk verbally wit u. so dont judge me ya. after tat he doesnt reply me ady...

ye juan bro also tired wit me ady. mentally and physically tired. sorry... tonight have dinner wit my exroommate and supper wit kean sam. thanks to u two. else i got to eat myself ady. haha... thanks thanks, really appreciate it.

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im sure that my life will gonna change from pessimistic to optimistic. today got class replacementfrom 3-6. first time attend so long class. haha... then follow my fellow coursemates to have dinner. at there my role is to listen what they said, more to be listener then speaker.

finally can take shot. is i offer myself one. carl, u dont know malu ya... haha... well, i just want to enter the screen once for my life and got another reason is i want to follow my male coursemates, all of them got enter screen last year.

at night got sms wit jasmine. she said i very quiet. haha... really? yup, more quiet. long time no sms wit her ady.

tonight is first time i ate supper wit kean sam and his fren. long time no go to ivory ady. how r u, ivory... haha... i plan to ask xenon bro but he not free. got abit beh syok, he said friday meet wit me de but goes to date wit his gf and gf's bro. haiz...

eric, u very busy mar? i want to chat wit u de but u r busy right? so better dont disturb u. scare u mad... haha...

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first time my assignment get CCCCCC!!!!!! kok finish

Wat? C!!! So sad when i get that result. carl, wats the problem of u? C? Tears rolling when wrote this. Yes, i do really sad now. Y u such a failure? Y? Y u always like that one? Lazy, useless... Y can't score well? Y u sucks on build relationship? Y u dont cant b more confident? Alot of Y suddenly pop out and like sword tat stabbing my heart. Carl, Y u always pessimit? Y?

Y they all go kl dont inform me? How come like that one? Y so sucks? Y??? Now i got thinking dont want to go. Haiz...

today i met wit xenon brother. very surprised to c him. He is having meal wit his fren, two gals. can't u have meal wit me when u noticed im alone? Haiz....

Wilbur brother this guy really dont know what he is busy on. I met him after i get the damn C!!! Want to talk wit him but he rushed to the class. Haiz... Next time ba...

Thanks to ye juan, che kwang, xenon, sk brother concern. Lee Hon, keh ping and alot of fren also said something to an wei me. Thanks alot. But i think i really got to rethink about wat is ur life. what u gonna do? how come u like that one? haiz... alot and alot need to think.

finally finish my kok. today very ashamed. all balls seem target to me. haha... but i cant do anything as i really sucks... carl, u r sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! again! haiz....... thanks to hung jin, he drives his new car eat together wit us... finally i can act wild wit them. haha...

090909

thanks to lee hon for eat wit me. at there, i met wit che kwang brother. so surprised to c him. hug him for awhile... he gets shocked... haha...

yesterday now 7 something i was at queensbay mall. together wit nik, nabihah, win and one coursemates. thanks for accompany me go there. v have meal together at the mamak store there. the surroundings quite nice. thanks to nik and nabihah. else, i dont know when will i step there again. haha... now i only realised tat borders is very nice and comfort. inside there got free seat for readers to relax at there. i wish to stay wit u all longer but cannot. got to head back to meeting. leader change the policy ady. one person one post? gosh! watever. thanks to my teammate, she gots car and drive me back to hostel. i quite shameful for not take my bag to the car. sorry to her tat she needs to take my bag back to there. u two, keep it as secret ya. so shameful! at first, i aim to CG have supper as i heard the nasi lemak at there is superb nice. however, when i reached there, it wasnt opened yet. then my teammate pick me back.

today is 090909. should feel quite happy de but this morning quite bad as i not perform well and the string suddenly break. RM 5 gone like that. quite blue. when i was taking the breakfast, i drop my sugar cane water. it worth... rm2!!!hahaha...

during the lecture accountings today due to few ppl come to attend. lecturer said mark attendance and give extra grade for the presentee. well, at that time i felt very happy as all my communication coursemates absent. thanks to shu wen also if she doesnt asked me to take note wher is the exam venue, i think most probably tat i wont go. wait a minute, y u feel happy? haiz... at tat time i even wish that lecture finish faster so tat they all cant get the benefits.... carl, u.... speechless.

today i meet wit wilbur, lee hon brother. quite surprised as wilbur dont know wat happened to him. eat so fast and dissappeared. dont know what does he thinks... both of them i met at CG cafe. haha... this is my direct senior, carl. it sounds very warmth. thanks to my direct junior introduced me to his fren. haha...

today i feel quite unhappy, bored, lonely. mixture of negative feeling. even shu wen also can feel and asked that y today im different? haha... finally got chance to eat nasi lemak at CG. well, quite ok. during tat time, sk give advise to me again... when step to work, i will die if i still behave like that. haiz....

thanks for su theng. 1st time i went there.

yesterday night have nice experience wit su theng seniors in jalan2 cari makan. thanks to her pick to sunshine there enjoy the food at there. 1st time i went there. pity carl, nobody bring u to find the delicious food at penang? haiz... wat to do? nobody got car. even got car, they also dont pick me... haha...

thanks for ur sharing. after graduate, its hard time to find the job. now i only knew that, therefore carl, pls be more optimistic. u got one role model ady. su theng so optimistic, she also felt abit down. carl, how about u? i worry u go suicide leh... haha...

glad to know that nicholas couson wake up from the operation. v add water together ya...

carl: 人，不要像一只，只会在鱼缸里游泳的鱼;要学会成为一只可以游向大海的鱼。

currently at eric v's house. thanks to jessica and eric's mum offer me to online. thanks alot. carl, 人，不要像一只，只会在鱼缸里游泳的鱼;要学会成为一只可以游向大海的鱼。suddenly see this from the cari website there. well, i hope u treat this as lesson. dont sad again, add water(cheryl saod! oil so fat!!!) haha... u must wake up ady. if u still negative, wat anson said is all useless. be more happy, confident. optimism...

suddenly received sms from eric.... warmth...

Take gud k man ! damn busy this month ! got time will share wit u my bad storiesthis sentences received at today early at the morning, 532am. Feel warmth instantly when saw that. Eric, thanks a lot.

Ye juan brother also very nice. Chat wit me last Friday. Offer his bed to me to sit and lie. He and che kwang brother are the only person at uni tat i will self-exposure to them. Worth for me to do tat. During tat moment, I vomit out all my sadness to him. Wat I react during this few weeks. The process I go to c the doctor, psychologist issue…… during the conversation, I also speak out the feeling tat I want to change minor. Friendship problem....

Thanks to both of u. How about Xenon brother? Well, this brother is not dependable for me. After few incidents, I don’t have comment about him. Unequal contribute friendship always exists between me and him. Same as Wilbur brother. Assignment, quiz, test…. Those reason I listen till no feeling. Why I only let xenon to decide the meeting time? Why he always be there wait for him to c me? So, yesterday I send this question to him but he doesn’t reply. Haha… u don’t know how to reply leh? Carl, u are really sucks… since when u will grow up?

This weekend go back to home. Wat is the reason I go back home? Well, at there I feel I being isolated.

happy birthday, mum.

mum, happy birthday!!! this week i purposely go bk to celebrate ur 52th birthday. haha... though i dont wish u directly but i think u can feel the sincerity from my heart? go to buy secret recipee, banana chocolate cake to u... haha... thanks for ur care. i love u, mum!!!

happy birthday to mickey too.

this week is quite bad luck

tuesday is my little SEED wallet birthday. must remember tat ya. Use branded wallet is my dream since long time ago. i quite envy on eric and others that they own their personal wallet. thanks to may chooi help me to swap her discount card.

this week is quite bad luck for me as this monday my charger defective. thanks to tony who willing to pick me go mind maker to buy new one. he is very nice to me. wat i can do is to treat him supper. one burger... thanks

after tat, i fall sick suddenly. wat is the causes? maybe during tim's birthday, i ate too many fried dishes ady. or maybe i apply anti-dark cycle product wrongly. maybe i dont drink too much water... haiz... bad luck. poor carl.

wat i have learned during this sick period is i found out most of my trusted brother is sometimes cant depend one. among three of them, i think only ye juan is the most concerned me one. how u diagnosed tat? well, i do send out i sick this sms to 3 of them... i received instant sms from ye juan. this brother though he is damn busy but also manage to key in something to me. compare to xenon and wilbur. after i send the angry mad sms to them, they only reply me. that 2 brother reply me at the late of night. especially xenon, this brother i felt that unequal level of concern and care between v two. i care him > he cares me. that is the fact. well, u r damn cool. got meeting, cant sms... busy. cant sms...

at the following day, tat is friday night. i sms him whether can sms anot, wat? busy? because got exam? bullshit!!! sms for awhile can disturb u how much of time? i also got test la, advertising at wednesday. got the regretness of give the present to u... haiz... carl, u r so stupid.
for wilbur this brother, he calls me... nothing to say also as i felt tat this bro emphasis his academics more than me de. its undoubtable fact. haiz... carl, this 3 brother is last time u choose one. wat is ur opinion? well, i think i will eliminate slowly de as in final i dont need neither of them except ye juan la... haha... this brother got the motive and interest to continue develope the brothership. 2 of them i dont know. perhaps degrade to fren... haha...

well, i found out tat che kwang is also my brother ady... haha... he is quite nice wit me. he learned all the YI GUAN DAO's value and applied at his life. thats why he gots the charisma... i hope che kwang brother can be my brother also la... haha...

finally back to home ady at today, wat do u feel? home better? the charger settle ady. rm68? wat? damn cheap!!! thanks alot. mind maker tat side i think i dont want ady. night, carl. felt headache when boarding the bus... hate it...

life during sem break(2)

har? next week come back again? oh no!!! can i dont come back? compulsory to back ar? dont want la. my mum's birthday, so carl, u got to go bk ya... tired of board the bus.

Thanks for the gathering, teh kian seng. ur thinking is far more advance than me. The way u talk is really deep. U give a lot of info to me about ur current life. quite enjoy to listen ur story... leisure talk. hope v can b good fren and wish u can get rid of the job tat u consider is not good.

another most important main motive i come bk is to meet wit him, eric. i finally can meet him. thanks ya. thanks for allow me to c u late of night as i really busy at tat moment. rushing two quiz. i read alot in order to prepare this two quiz. but the outcome not so satisfy. nvmla, i try my best ady. 人不应为着被欣赏而成长, 而是要为着自己的特色而存在! this sentence i grab from cari.com which eric shares wit me 2 years ago and today he noticed it. thanks... eric, thanks for share me the work life experience. i wish to enter advertising field. if really can get, then is ok. 2nd option is event field. c how first. thanks for ur advise, i will enter ads field rather than media field de la... thanks alot. actually i want to tell u tat books price de. but seems quite shy. haha... next time, u remember must ask me ya. eric, if time allow, i want to talk wit u somemore but cant. i hope our next gathering, u can noticed me more mature... haha...

life during sem break (1)

so why do u go bk to ipoh? is it eric gots go bk then u follow him leh? if u asked me (before i come back), i will say yes. I just come back because of him. wat la... u r really son of the bitch... haha... however, after come bk for several days. i can sense and feel tat got two reason i came back. 1 is eric... 2 is for my parents. though i dont like the way they "love" me but my appearance cause them feel so excited and happy. i suddenly feel guilty. haha... watever la...

during sembreak i everyday also read something. so tat, can enhance my knowledge. but mostly is accountings as i got to take the quiz alone. so worry. thanks to shaun, mickey, yuin and shu wen. this sem i got chance to meet wit mickey again. i forget is which day ady. i think is at monday. thanks for meet me again. after tat during this sembreak, i got meeting twice wit my fellow coursemate regarding to KAP question. im glad tat i got meet wit them.

su chin convo...

congratulations to my senior, ms. choo su chin. thanks for ur notes. i guess she is my direct senior punye direct junior. i hope her future is bright... so tat, i can depend on her when i want to find my job... wohoooo.....

nice pasar malam, jelutong. first time i go there...

i would like to say thanks to daniel and candy as the host of this event. they two act as driver pick 8 of us(2 couples, c.ling. peggy, shaun and me) to jelutong pasar malam. at first, i feel bore to walk wit them + rain dizzily. so no the feeling to walk pasar malam. however, after i follow candy and daniel. i got feel abit relax. thanks for daniel and candy, they caused me feel relief. haha... bsides that, thanks for ur food supply. im kinda poor and wont spare out the $ to buy those food. yet, u always show me the food. thanks alot. daniel, u r such nice gentlemen. candy, thanks for ur advise last night. though it hurts me but i rather u hurt me than the others member. u r another person bsides jeffrey who taught those to me. thanks alot.

from now on, i wont depends to all my brothers.

conversation between carl and xenon...

pls let me study peacefully at next 3 sem, then can go away ady
fly out m'sia or work at advertising firm also can
oo
only oo ar?
haha
then?
nth la. dont expect much from u
it is gd tat u tink in tis way
be imddependent
so y i need u as my brother leh?
u ned bro jz to depend on him?
overall is like tat
then i am sure u dun hav many bro wif u
brother doesnt need much, 1 or 2 is enough
brothership is a kind of feeling,fate
doesnt ned to depend on each other de
my best bro din even help me out
n we din c each other 4 many month oso
bt in tis world nobody is comparable wif him de
yala
he is the most top one la
bt i sti gt 8 or 9 oso same lv de la
jz i gt share hobby wif him,so i am closer to him lo
ooo
i tink u shud tink over the definition of 'fren'
haha
4 ur own gd la..
i cant get wat u mean
really cant get
totally cant get
reali lo...dun turn to deaf ear
u tink wat is fren...then lok ard who is ur fren...n try to tink wat u do to ur fren b4,n tink is it correct o wrg
........
CRY

brother, from now on, i think i wont depend on u anymore
just try change the mode

valueable advise i received from this coursemate. thanks alot.

thanks candy for ur advise. thanks alot.

i think i wont minor management next sem ady
will go find hui ling
haha
y?
because i dont like to group wit them
haha
just now they all do quiz together, without telling me
haha
o...
it doesnt matter 1 wat
dun change becoz of dat
its juz minor ok
i also din join them wat
now also x hav answers for quiz d
u can study sendiri and do ma
like me, i prefer do sendiri
yup
do sendiri lo
wat to do?
so u really goin to change minor ar?
dont change better la
let me think first la
hehe1
if u change this and dat then at the end u have to extend then do u think it worth it?
nola
choio
if u r interested in manangement then dont change la
i saja say la
i change it to E code la
just in case ma
i very worry i cannot graduate
haha
choi choi choi
v two must graduate
hope so
er
do u mind if i tell u something
pls tell
emmm
actually y u sometimes got talk to them and sometimes u dont?
i think it makes them feel weird n upset
since im so fren wit u
i straightly tell u
i dont like
jasmine, nelson, peggy
christopher
y?
juz be normal fren la
yup
no need to b close fren ma
normal fren lo
hi bye fren lo
hi, jasmine
bye, jasmine
normal fren also u need to say hi wat
sometime they talk i mai smile lo
sometimes when they say hi to you and u dont respond i think its not so good lar
i got respond ar
give them a smile
for me also i SUPER hate when i talk or say hi to someone and he/she doesnt answer me
smiley face
sometimes you dont
i saw b4
then they said u r very weird
sometimes fren them sometimes ignore them
tats why i got two face one
actually since we are coursemate
we stil hav 1 year plus to go
juz maintain normal fren
talk normal thing
dun got two face
bad for urself only
they wont feel anything
yup
for them they wont lose anything
yup
so i think la
u dun need to force urself to talk less to them
try say hi
everytime
sometimes can talk abit
good for urself
we same major somemore
i dun mean to be kepo
i juz want to let u knw how ppl feel abt u
coz sometimes we sendiri dun knw
only ppl beside can see whats really goin o
on*
then i good very bad impression on them lo?
i dun knw wat happened last time that made u guys not that close anymore and it doesnt matter d coz it already past
since we r young adult
and mature
and i not foce myself to talk less to them.
we need to act mature
forget the past
because i really no interested to make good fren wit those of them
try to be normal fren la
if no ''yuan fen'' be good fren
i will say hi to them
smile wit them
then remain course mate n normal fren la
this one i promise u can make it
yup
hmmmmmmmm
remain coursemates and normal fren lo
thanks for ur remind
really thanks lo
i also got not much topic to talk to them but i also try to group wif them, talk sometimes, hang out together once in a long while like today
hmm
u r the 1st ppl who talk till tat to me
i close wit shaun, c.ling they all
so i hope u can everytime remember to say hi ok
dun siok siok say siok siok ignore them
they sure wil bo siok
they also dont tell me
u r really nice
no la
mayb they worry of hurting u
or they dun knw how to tell
haha
and we also need to remind ourselves that its not only other ppl got problem, ppl not good
wat i hope is this 3 semester i can study peacefully and graduates
we also hav our own shortcomings
yup
u talk so right
like me, when i feel ppl dun like me
u touched my heart la
i wil think mayb my attitude got prob
i wil try to think at both side
i got problem mar?
candy, i got problem mar?
frm wat i can see la
last sem i got feel them think u laugh too loud ( mayb only)
then er
i think u are not so mature...not ''not mature'' u knw
its that sometimes u talk too straight d
we think ppl can understand
and accept
but actually ppl dont
not all ppl think the same way we do
mayb they mind and they keep in heart
i think la sometimes u very ''tian zhen'' u straight away say what u think
we better think b4 we say
and see who r we talking to
if u not 100% sure that ppl is not small gas
then we better dun kritik them
i got hurt ppl meh?
they sure bo siok
i seldom mix wif u guys last time so i dun knw much
but one example was
last time when we play true or dare
u straight say jasmine this and dat
i terkejut
i knw she sure not happy
tat is true or dare ar
actually 99% ppl cannot accept ppl say them like that
must tell true mar
if very pandai, success , and perfect say them mayb they can accept
if normal ppl like us
they wil think we dont hav zhi ge to say them
dont say other ppl
i also cannot 100% sure i wont bo siok if i kena ppl say like dat
yup
i so tian zhen
haiz
hmm
erm
so u get wat i mean lar?
actually i dun knw wats ur prob for them
coz i never ask
they also never tell
haha
pls read my blog
u got google account?
IF u really want mayb u can ask them
give me
but actually i dun encourage la
i dont want ask them la
fren in uni only ma
i will hurt deeply
after graduate also 80% wont fren so close d
we wil hav our own life
yup
good
support ur stand
now concerntrate in studies enuf d la
yup
u just now cause me sad and want to CRY
but i feel glad also
nice to meet wit u
haiz
i juz do wat i can la
oh
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i suddenly remember ur famous pattern d
i knw one of the reasons ppl x likey u
u pandai tell ppl gossip
mana ade?
u give me example
so ppl are worried to let u knw their things
i dun remember
carl
sometimes rite
we really wont realize 1
i tak ade la
coz when something is ok or normal for us
we really think tis ok
but mayb for other ppl its not
this one i setuju
so we wont knw 1
yup
so dats wat i knw la
but nvm la
frm now u juz talk to them abt studies,
personal life dun kepo and dun ask lo
yup
must remember this
i also talk normal things wof them only
if ppl dun tell i wont go ask
yup
i must follow u
i brb
u r my role model ady
dun la
i very kanasai 1
hehe
thanks for ur suggestion
thanks alot
welcome la
go sleep
yup
i need to rest ady
cry just now at heart

nearly cry out... patient. che kwang, happy birthday.

xenon bro, u let me down. even eric bro also, i tot eric will analyse to me de. but no reponse. xenon bro, i tot u will immediately help me one. but, seems u dont bother much. luckilly got wilbur and kai yi brother. ye juan not available for me yet. so i cant get from him.

wait a minute, y must get advise from them? can u settle urself? long time no cry out ady. this time tears rolling and rolling... not flow down. thanks for kai yi analyse. really thanks alot. sorry for cause u wake up. sorry ya.

eric bro, i dont know whether u can make it anot? actually whether u can make it anot also ok. i mean yes, if u can go back then i play wit u. if u cant, i also wont feel nothing. u r the best fren at hometown. i many many many bad attitude u have experienced ady. can understand me well.

che kwang, happy birthday. hope u like the present i pass to u.

eric v's convo part 2.

yesterday night suddenly received some good advice from my coursemate. thanks. but u cause me quite sad and emo. haha...

let me continue eric's convo first. due to those perception of my parents to me, i think i zipped my mouth better. saturday morning, pui tse and her mum come. v guys have breakfast at in front of trade parade there. wait the florist to open. how come dont go buy after the florist shop open leh? after tat, v go to out destination.

on the way, v got stop at the rest station. then, continue. v go klcc. i long time no come here since jaron pick me to here to have book fest. thanks jaron. v go have jessica SD card, flower. start to go wisma mca. so crowded.

eric's is very smart when wear convo shirt. he pass the ticket to me. quite surprised to receive that. touched.... thanks. then v guys listen the speech. basically i understand wat have delivered. congratulation, eric. he goes to take picture from anywhere. he talks alot and alot. her mum is very happy and relief to c tat.



he changes his clothes at the car park station there. now i know how he wears the shirt and i will wear the same at two years later. eric, next time when u leave pls be aware of ur stuff before u leave. i mean watch watch observe observe wat u have left. im so sorry to ur spec. gone like that ady. then v guys have late lunch at klcc. madam kuan's, last time i come here wit eric one. this was the 2nd time i come wit him and his family. the dinner is quite heavy. so full... haha... thanks, jessica for the treat. even breakfast also jessica treat me. thanks. eric, i seldom chat wit u. the time i alone wit u is the time when v go toilet together and when he accompany me go to buy bus ticket. haha... pass the gift to him.

then v guys to bus station. finally i get ticket and start to move at 8. bye, kl. jaron, u let me down. last time u said u can get me accommodation. but now? dont know how to face u... thanks for UM fren such as keong and kok xiong senior. i can rest at there. however, i dont want as i feel dont want to trouble them.

bore at the bus. online and chat wit eric... this brother also got the feeling tat he dont have the time wit me. he recommends me to take omnicons instead of media prima.... thanks...
xenon brother is the one who pick me when i reached penang around 1245am. thanks xenon. next time must becareful of razor, blooding. at first it stop ady then when i return my luggage and v go khaleel. blooding again. he saw it. thanks for ur concern. during supper, he story alot to me. badminton, accountings, management, tiredness, SHE.......

xenon, u r not observable enough. cant feel tat i tired de mar? still want proceed. haha... but i willing to listen wat u say as i really long time no eat wit u. i mean since last few weeks. never have properly face to face conversation wit u. talk talk talk. can c his saliva fly over here and there. this brother really knows alot about badminton. he expert on relates marketing, principles of management and accountings on his routine life. thanks xenon.

after go back to hostel, online and chat wit jeffrey. he caused me really sad. tears almost come out. i know i got alot of bad attitude. sissy, behave like gal, not hardworking enough..... thanks for ur advise. really thanks alot. eric, xenon, ye juan, wilbur where u? want to cry ady. haiz... tears rolling and rolling. but i cant cry. wont give up.... wont cry....