17 april, all happy things + one lie + one miss

today got wonderful time at hst. i go back to hst already. start bus at 1pm at 17april then arrive at 3 something. chee yeong brother picks me after the rain stop. at the car, i know the hst will move soon. sorry, chee yeong brother, i dont know how to answer u at that time. so, i remain silent. thanks, brother. pick me to hst. really thanks. then during hst. i meet wit this guy that i so long no c already. jaron keng. he still remain the same. he says when i leave hst as well as other senior leave, he becomes so lonely. how lonely? just him and chee yeong brother. everyday also pass the time like that. no one communicate wit him. but in my opinion, he gots alot of friend to chat wit one. how come he feels like that? dont sad, jaron brother. actually i face the same problem wit u one. really similar. v go through together ok?

so happy, can eat dinner wit others hst senior which long time no meet. both of my lovely jiang shi, thanks. thanks for ur transportation and meal. thanks for hst girls who chat wit me when i bore. as jaron brother and chee yeong brother is not at here, i sms wit ching kei brother which at penang and ming jing sister. thanks for them also. finally that two guys i admire the most come bk, wah! so happy, i commend them to eat wit me. supper time. i tot they will refuse de. as study week come, but in fact is not. they very happy when eat wit me. i share my things to them whereas they also quite happy and enjoy my story. really happy. thanks to jaron, share alot of his story wit me. i can meet those brother is my luck. i should appreciate them.

i would like to say sorry to all as i tell lie to u all. i wont stay at utar, kampar hst one. so during the wen jiangshi asks me, i not dare to refuse. so, i mai say yes. but in fact. i wont stay one. really happy because tmw eric will come and discuss his god question wit chee yeong brother. tonight i rest at ching kei bed. hehe...... rest wit jaron. good night, jaron. c u tmw, eric.

got one things, i care the most one is him, sk. wher is him? why he doesnt come? this question i ask to chee yeong bro and jaron brother. why? busy? but i know he is very busy de.

chea how x tau malu

still got 9 days left to my big day. i wonder to know when that day come, what is the outcome? eric do not want to wish me at that day, is ok. are u sure is ok? acutally im very angry de but wat to do? he doesnt want to play wit me, its fact already. cannot beg him right? eric, i hope can forgive u but 21th birthday. the event is so big. how to forgive him? haih......

whatever, i will go kl this coming friday. the main things is to c him, sk. 2nd is get bk the thumbdrive and to return the shirt to couson. i swear i will get new and beautiful shirt by myself, not lend from somebody. the whole incident show tat compare to my couson, my grandmom love them more than me. mum, u are correct. totally correct. so, i will return the shirt to them one.

just now tell with ryan already. ask him to arrange my birthday party. wait, dont u think this is ashamed? haih, last year also like that. x tau malu!!!

1st time

today is final week final day already. this sem is nearly finish. it causes me alot og memory. so many 1st time at here. can meet with many good ppl that let me growth at here, such as u ^-^, ms.ilma, ms.eng, ms.joanna and my tutorial coursemate.

i would like to take this chance to say thank you to u all. thanks for causing me experience alot of 1st time., 1st time at utar do assignment, that is urs. 1st time learn how to do citation. 1st time get scolded by teammate as i was too green whereas they all came from foundation, 1st time fail my assignment, not even get half into it, 1t time argue with other tutorial coursemate. 1st time, present in front of so many ppl, quite shocked, 1st time c my other tutorial member let me get shoot without helping me. 1st time, get praise and approval by my tutorial mate when i score the highest at pop quiz. so many 1st time at here. u leh? remember ur 1st time at uni?

thanks to averse, my senior, eric and sk brother.

hmm.... today feel quite happy because my group score the highest at PR3but i dont contribute much at it. so got feel abit sad. hehe... finally mypresentation task on this sem finish already. today i look so smart.thanks for my classmate willing to lend me his tie. really thanks! casueme look so smart today. very handsome right? hehe... actually i think inot fully use of my height. i got thinking want to be cabin crew one. dontlaugh at me, ok? haha... just share wit u only. so after complete mydegree, i will go to interview one.

this week is final week already, next sem can i c u again? wish to always see u lo. can chat wit u, share my good and bad things to u as u are mysenior and brother. thanks for ur advice ar! really touch when i receiveur message. thank you. i remember 1st time i chat wit u personally, allstudents are not at the class yet. thanks for share ur knowledge to me.what is the salary of master, degree holder. right now, i got thinkingwant to be lecturer also bsides cabin crew la. hahaha... at that time i soglad to be at there. share my pass experience wit u. thanks for ur influence. u are very mean to me as seniors and my brother. thanks.

eric, i really want to celebrate wit u de ar. hope can fullfill lo. dont know can c sk brother anot leh?

7 april

now is 7 april already. still got 2 more weeks reach my final. chea how, u recall bk what have u do lately? on9 chatting? talk alot of bull shit things? chea how, u cant like that one. last week quite some sad events occurred. I fail my assignment again. this time is essay. haih! is all my fault for not prepare well at the exam.

got 22 days to reach.

2nd day of april. yesterday wants to say TQ to one of my friend who cheat me during april's fool. thanks! quite shock when i know that. let me awake for sometimes. thanks ya! exam is 23 april. still got 22 days left. chea how, what are doing at there? still in slow motion ar. read the power point slide notes provided by lecturer is not enough one, instead u should try to look at the pass year paper and understand how the question come out.

Quite surprised that most of my friend doesnt like the study group one. so i have to read all by myself lo. tonight sleep at most 5 hours to catch bk of yesterday. yesterday night quite early to rest already. damn chea how, not set the alarm before u rest. but though i set alarm i also will continue to rest bk de la. stupid!!! lazy!!! how to score into president list? how?

still thinking whether i want to go kl anot during my birthday. that time utar and um also study week, no one will play with me one. even got ppl, i also feel very sorry to them la. how about eric? well, he quite emo lately, maybe quite busy with his assignment. haih...... how to pass my 21 years old le?

all those advised.... sucks

just now view bk the history of those guys who give advised to me last week. how to say? sad feeling comes bk again. very sad and down i scroll down the conversation. once i scroll down the text, really sad one. im 21 years old already yet my socialize skills is sucks. very sucks. I noe u all say those to me is help me de but......

eric, im failure. u are right whatever solution i plan is fail on ur view. dont meet u is fail and u say i wil no longer grow up at all. ok, then i plan to disturb u when i mature, 我很肯定你永远都长不到！！！！！ in nutshell, in front of u, i was born to be fail. watever things i do is wrong.

this is same as my parents view, in whatever way i do, i also wrong de. Leave UM is wrong for them. This is the most wrong things in entire of my life soundby my mum. then what can i do? u all ask me? watever things i also do wrong then u all born me for wat?

Ryan really point out all my blacksheep. (your relationship, your conversation, your temper, your character. all of tis is it sum way u do some miztake n tat y u cant ge d real fren n some time ppl dun like u. ppl dun like talk 2 u, ppl dun like play 2 u n dun date u even hv sum activities) soundby him. He just like ppl who pour whole cold water to me. i was just finish my IT exam paper, was so happy and relieve that moment then he comes to say those. wah!!! but i noe he says this to me is for my own good.

Sk, this guys is so smart. he aware of all my bad things. do i show bad faces to him when i saw him? how come he noes? really sad.